Intense energies and clearing dream

Last night I can honestly say the energies ramped up a notch or better saying a LOT! I felt it already bubbling up inside of my body while I was watching another movie. But it got even more intense as I was lying on my back for sleep. As usual I started my nightly “adventure” with a meditation and just feeling in order to sense new sensations. And I was not disappointed as it became very clear after just a few seconds of lying down that my energy body was being worked on almost immediately after lying down!

I felt strong surges of energy from both of my hip bones, it almost feels like a tiny electric discharge was taking place around the hip joints. I suppose these joints are buffers for extreme amounts of energy so whatever is too much gets discharged from the body and can be felt as sparkling, almost like goosebumps.

After these sensations I felt strong vibrations almost like a cellphone was vibrating in the entire area of my stomach! It was literally feeling as if thousand of tiny little vibrating particles were jumping around in my stomach! And I knew it was a Solar Plexus chakra clearing! After that I felt strong sensations in my chest and I tried to the best of my ability to stay in the heart instead of going up again into the mind and ask questions. I just wanted to observe and feel! However as I drifted closed off to sleep I suddenly got aware again because I felt sudden stings, almost like insect bites in my genital area… It was so weird, can you imagine you are lying in meditation and want to relax as suddenly something feels like it bites you in the most sensitive area of your body? LOL

Anyway after that I just rolled to the side and tried to sleep, which interestingly enough worked quite fast actually!

DREAM: kidnapping, sexual ritual, follow the squirrel into a black hole!

The dream was more than surreal, however it felt very REAL! This is the worst thing about these dreams, they are so unreal but they definitely feel real… OMG this sounds so strange. The dream began actually while I was in some kind of facility or some kind of weird building. I did not see the outside, but I know that there were many people chained up to chairs, that looked like recliners! Just in black leather. I was sitting on the very left outside chair, while on my right there were more women chained up to the chairs. I however was not chained! Still I was sitting there!

The dream shifted many times to a disturbing scene! I am not sure how this happened, but it always shifted to a dark area where a woman was chained to the ground and a man,huge, intense muscles, brown long hair, almost barbaric in looks, kneed over her and raped her! It’s not only that he raped her, I was forced to watch up close how his gigantic ehm… willy entered her… I was disturbed and did not know what was going on, however apparently I was not allowed to wake up from this. This exact scene repeated itself a few times.

Then the dream shifted again and I was sitting once again on the chair, as I hear someone say that the women there are going through a ritual, they are having sexual intercourse to bear the babies for someone. I am not sure who it was though. As I heard this I suddenly got panic flooding my being and I knew I needed to get out of there. It was then that a weird machine who stood on some kind of metallic tripod and had a laser eye turned around and wanted to shoot a laser beam on my wrists, I suppose it was the device that chained the women to the chairs. I countered the attack and grabbed the long, thin neck of this machine and trashed it with my feet and I ran away…

The dream suddenly shifts and I am walking with my husband I suppose? Even though I never saw him, it could have been someone else? As I saw a squirrel run away and into a big black hole. I followed it and the other person followed me. As we reached the black hole I saw that the animal covered it was dirt and a weird golden stone! So I removed the dirt and the stone and could look deep down the “rabbit hole???” I guess the squirrel is my version of ALICE IN WONDERLAND’S bunny!  HA HA HA Did you read that Karin??? The squirrel seems to be for me what is for your the bunny! So we jumped down the hole and found ourselves in a dark underground kind of setting. The man was walking in front of me refusing to turn on the light, as we walked through this area. I was almost running as I got overwhelmed by the darkness down there…

As we reached the end of it I suddenly entered a weird looking house. I moved through the rooms and as I reached the balcony I suddenly realize that it was the same setting as in the beginning but this time nobody as there anymore and it all looked lost and lonely! That moment as I looked over the lawn I must have been woken by my husband getting up in the morning.

Funny though I remember a very vivid flying dream from my childhood! I was flying and visiting a man with blonde hair and blue eyes on a house with a huge balcony in the middle of the night! We were in love apparently and kissing each other. This was one of my first remembered childhood dreams that involved flying in order to reach a place that I could never have entered before. I don’t know how it is connected to my dream just now, but that the memory just came back is definitely worth mentioning!


Decisions & strong energetic experience last night

Okay… The days go by and I thought I had it all figured out. I decided without my husbands interference to give my pet bird away to a wonderful person who has kids, is an animal rescuer etc. Everything was working well and I thought I was feeling good by the thought that my bird would come to a family who cares with heart about animals plus he would be around 2 other birds. I was preparing everything and then I asked my husband this morning if we are at home at 1 PM, and he said yes but asked me at the same time “why?” I told him that at 1 PM the woman would come to us to pick up Gustav. And his response was “What?!

And then one word went after the other and he made me feel guilty, made me feel insecure in my decision. He said “Are you really sure you want to do that? Don’t just do it because I cannot stand his noise. I know you will be sad after that a regret this decision. Don’t do it!” This discussion brought on a whole bunch of emotions and again I was wiggling in my own decision which I though was so thorough this time… Well it was not… he further said, “you don’t have anything else and when I go on business meetings you will be alone. I don’t want you to feel miserable all your life…” and so it happened that 1 PM approached closer and closer and as if she picked up on my insecurities, she wrote me a message and asked m:

Are you still okay with giving him away? I know I won’t as I can totally understand if you don’t or are not ready yet.” And so it happened that my bird is now still with me. On top of that we ran into expenses over expenses because of the house. There was mold in my room in the closet of my husband and it seems the water behind my sink and toilet was leaking… My husband is on the ground and actually just told me “Well I am literally at the end of the rope, I am close to collapse, nothing works, the house breaks a part, expenses over expenses with no money coming in at all… I don’t have anything anymore, I can barely speak, my neck and back hurt, my head is a mess… i have nothing left” Out of nowhere an anger overcame me and I had tears in my eyes, and I told him right straight into the face

You have nothing left? If I am gone, you have nothing left! Saying that sounds to me like I am not important at all to you… I was ready to give that fucking bird away, so we would have a better life and a quieter life as well and I just messed up another wonderful person who would have given my bird a good home, just because of this nonsense!

After that my husband became quiet, he had an appointment at his chiropractor again for his neck stiffness or whatever it is… And he looked at me outside and said “Well part of what you just said may be true, but I am drowning, I can barely speak anymore. When I talk to people it’s like I have no words at all, and that never happened to me.” (He thinks it is because he is living with me, I don’t have the huge vocabulary that he has and so he thinks he loses his, because of me…)


However last night I had a very strong energetic experience! I was lying in bed and had my eyes closed, as usual I was lying on my back, and suddenly started feeling strong energetic sensations inside my body, it was like waves of energy were going from the heart chakra down to the solar plexus chakra and with a very strong push it felt like a fist was literally pushing inside my stomach, it was like energy was being pooled inside the solar plexus. The same moment I heard a very strong humming noise and thought it came from outside, while in fact I picked it up somehow. Then the visuals in front of me changed, it was like I could suddenly see a very subtle glow with the outlines of the bed room, as if my eyes were opened just not the physical ones. I saw mirages of purple, pink and violet lights, as well as colored sparkles that went as patterns through my visual field. I actually was certain that I saw little forms inside these patterns, like little round objects, and other objects, that just formed out of thin air! It was a spectacular light show.

When I talked to my husband this morning and before I told him what I said with him having nothing left, I felt the strong energetic push in my navel again. It feels like an energetic fist is slowly pushing inside that area. Just for a few seconds and then it is gone again.