Energy reaches kind of a high point!

Last night was intense to say the least! it was so intense… And on top of that my husband still continued to drag around that stupid fight about one silly sentence of mine… He does not understand that the only reason why he was upset about it is that he has some issues to resolve for himself. There is no way on earth that someone starts a huge fight just 3 days after telling you that they fell in love with you “again” that suddenly this “love” breaks a part because of ONE nonsense sentence which I did not even mean as bad or anything like that. It was more in a joking way. So as the energy reached a high point towards the evening I felt strong energy pushes and surges along my back that directly shot up to the heart center. There was a moment last evening as I watched a movie that I actually thought this is HUGE! I mean I never felt it so crystal clear before. But my whole lower back was filled with dense mega charged energy, that felt like electric wires left and right were discharging electromagnetism! It’s no wonder as I talked for a long time over messages on Facebook with another individual (Jason) who goes through similar experiences with his Kundalini! No wonder that my energy got enormous after these conversations!

As the night approached my husband told me he needs to be alone for this night, so I slept alone. I took the chance to again try to meditate and see where it goes without forcing anything! There was a sudden moment I have no idea what actually happened in this moment! It was too weird to comprehend! I don’t know if I fell asleep for a second or something else was taking place, but as my mouth again fell open widely while in total relaxation I suddenly heard a very loud and weird noise that I this time observed for a brief moment and I felt it came right from the center of my head! It was not even in my ears! It was like a very loud cracking of paper or something else, it’s too difficult for me to explain what I heard. But the moment I did hear it my whole awareness got intense again and the sound just like that disappeared. I thought “What the hell???!”

As I then tried to repeat this by closely falling asleep it did not happen again. This is the thing these experiences just happen, you have no control over them whatsoever! It did not happen again! But I fell asleep.

In the morning at 9 AM my husband came to my room and asked me to join him again. As I went to the bathroom and joined him in the bed he was already asleep again I suppose. That was quick lol… I also fell asleep very fast, but something happened and I am baffled by it and still try to figure out if it was an OOBE! I suddenly got aware of a visual I was standing upstairs in our old home in Germany! And I went downstairs during the walk downstairs I saw that my vision suddenly become crystal clear, I could see the walls, as I remembered them. I saw the dogs downstairs. And in this moment I was so happy I could feel it, seeing the dogs of my mother! Suddenly the visual blurred a bit and out of instinct I rubbed my hands together as I read a few times already that this helps and indeed the visual came back. I continued downstairs. Then as I turned left into the kitchen, I got aware of a red glowing number on the microwave which was not on the right spot! It was standing right in front of me on the counter, while I know it was always on the left! I do not remember the number though… The dogs were playing and I actually kneed down to look at my old dog Luna, she was happy to see me. I wondered was that really possible that they could see me??? I only had visual through my eyes which is uncommon, I always see myself from another perspective in my dreams. and yet I seem to have had control over the experience! As I decided before that to rub my hands!

I continued through the kitchen and moved towards the living room. I saw my mother and my father sitting on the couch on the right side of the room. I know for sure the couch and sofa are now on the left side! But something else was weird. My mother appeared with no hair just kind of little blonde but it looked almost as if she was bold. I was kind of surprised… I wanted them to see me but they did not see me… So I moved ahead and grabbed a paper napkin from the floor and put it into the garbage bin. But they did not see it… The next step was to push something in front of my mother on the table. As I did this I felt the object on my pointer finger as if I really touched it. In this moment the visual distorted and I could not retain it anymore. As I got aware of the red hue in front of me and the light show spreading out I suddenly felt a very weird sensation. It felt like I got seriously electric zapped inside my left and right ear. But more inside the left one! As I tried to get another visual while I was aware I got zapped again and soon afterwards it was time to wake up anyway. If this was my first OOBE I am actually quite amazed, because it seemed that I had control, over pushing things, playing with my dog abs rubbing my hands

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Intense energies and clearing dream

Last night I can honestly say the energies ramped up a notch or better saying a LOT! I felt it already bubbling up inside of my body while I was watching another movie. But it got even more intense as I was lying on my back for sleep. As usual I started my nightly “adventure” with a meditation and just feeling in order to sense new sensations. And I was not disappointed as it became very clear after just a few seconds of lying down that my energy body was being worked on almost immediately after lying down!

I felt strong surges of energy from both of my hip bones, it almost feels like a tiny electric discharge was taking place around the hip joints. I suppose these joints are buffers for extreme amounts of energy so whatever is too much gets discharged from the body and can be felt as sparkling, almost like goosebumps.

After these sensations I felt strong vibrations almost like a cellphone was vibrating in the entire area of my stomach! It was literally feeling as if thousand of tiny little vibrating particles were jumping around in my stomach! And I knew it was a Solar Plexus chakra clearing! After that I felt strong sensations in my chest and I tried to the best of my ability to stay in the heart instead of going up again into the mind and ask questions. I just wanted to observe and feel! However as I drifted closed off to sleep I suddenly got aware again because I felt sudden stings, almost like insect bites in my genital area… It was so weird, can you imagine you are lying in meditation and want to relax as suddenly something feels like it bites you in the most sensitive area of your body? LOL

Anyway after that I just rolled to the side and tried to sleep, which interestingly enough worked quite fast actually!

DREAM: kidnapping, sexual ritual, follow the squirrel into a black hole!

The dream was more than surreal, however it felt very REAL! This is the worst thing about these dreams, they are so unreal but they definitely feel real… OMG this sounds so strange. The dream began actually while I was in some kind of facility or some kind of weird building. I did not see the outside, but I know that there were many people chained up to chairs, that looked like recliners! Just in black leather. I was sitting on the very left outside chair, while on my right there were more women chained up to the chairs. I however was not chained! Still I was sitting there!

The dream shifted many times to a disturbing scene! I am not sure how this happened, but it always shifted to a dark area where a woman was chained to the ground and a man,huge, intense muscles, brown long hair, almost barbaric in looks, kneed over her and raped her! It’s not only that he raped her, I was forced to watch up close how his gigantic ehm… willy entered her… I was disturbed and did not know what was going on, however apparently I was not allowed to wake up from this. This exact scene repeated itself a few times.

Then the dream shifted again and I was sitting once again on the chair, as I hear someone say that the women there are going through a ritual, they are having sexual intercourse to bear the babies for someone. I am not sure who it was though. As I heard this I suddenly got panic flooding my being and I knew I needed to get out of there. It was then that a weird machine who stood on some kind of metallic tripod and had a laser eye turned around and wanted to shoot a laser beam on my wrists, I suppose it was the device that chained the women to the chairs. I countered the attack and grabbed the long, thin neck of this machine and trashed it with my feet and I ran away…

The dream suddenly shifts and I am walking with my husband I suppose? Even though I never saw him, it could have been someone else? As I saw a squirrel run away and into a big black hole. I followed it and the other person followed me. As we reached the black hole I saw that the animal covered it was dirt and a weird golden stone! So I removed the dirt and the stone and could look deep down the “rabbit hole???” I guess the squirrel is my version of ALICE IN WONDERLAND’S bunny!  HA HA HA Did you read that Karin??? The squirrel seems to be for me what is for your the bunny! So we jumped down the hole and found ourselves in a dark underground kind of setting. The man was walking in front of me refusing to turn on the light, as we walked through this area. I was almost running as I got overwhelmed by the darkness down there…

As we reached the end of it I suddenly entered a weird looking house. I moved through the rooms and as I reached the balcony I suddenly realize that it was the same setting as in the beginning but this time nobody as there anymore and it all looked lost and lonely! That moment as I looked over the lawn I must have been woken by my husband getting up in the morning.

Funny though I remember a very vivid flying dream from my childhood! I was flying and visiting a man with blonde hair and blue eyes on a house with a huge balcony in the middle of the night! We were in love apparently and kissing each other. This was one of my first remembered childhood dreams that involved flying in order to reach a place that I could never have entered before. I don’t know how it is connected to my dream just now, but that the memory just came back is definitely worth mentioning!

Energy is back!

After a strong emotional pain hit me out of nowhere I suddenly also experienced again the strong energy surges! I feel a lot of activity and movement inside my chest, especially in the evening while sitting relaxed and watching a movie! I can feel it through the front but also on the backside of my body. All in the height of the Heart center! On the back it sometimes feels as if density is pressing against the chair lean!

I also try to still my mind through meditation and I somehow managed last night to get some glimpses of what I experienced in the past when all of these energetic experiences started happening. I was lying on my back and just starring into nothingness. My visual screen was dark. However after some minutes of resting and relaxing I started seeing tiny little light flashes in the darkness. Like a distant camera was flashing on and off.

Then out of a sudden as I did not question anything that would happen or actually happened I saw a light flash which brought a visual with it. I saw for the blink of a second a man’s head. He had short blonde hair, blue eyes and his head appeared to be covered in blood! This visual came on suddenly as it always did in the past, when I first had my Kundalini Awakening. It startled me a tiny bit, or enough to create a heart jump, when it appeared. Sometime after this I fell asleep and I actually had a dream that somehow was connected to this visual!

DREAM: Swimming, two men, blood!

In the dream I was myself and I went to some kind of an indoor swimming pool. It looked beautiful and kind of like the pools in Germany! As I walked towards the edge and downstairs into the water a man passed me. He was taller than me, had short blonde hair and blue eyes. His face is burned into my mind I can still see him in front of me! He looked at me while passing with a very charming gaze! Like he was literally starring right into my soul. As I passed him and went deeper into the water I encountered another man who looked very similar to the first one! However I figured out at some point that they were both brothers! The second one was a little bit younger than the first. And it then happened that I felt embarrassed because of the looks these both men were giving me. I tried to hide from them. But in the end I was sitting at the back side of the pool having my feet inside the water, as the younger brother suddenly appeared and sat beside me. He talked to me, sadly the conversation is lost. However I remotely remember that he tried to make me feel happiness. He tried to convince me that his brother would like to see me. So somehow I must have agreed to this whole thing as both of them were irresistibly charming and beautiful at the same time!

The dream shifted and I entered a house, a beautiful home decorated with picture frames and flowers (red roses). As I entered the house I was lead to the entrance area and needed to wait for the older brother to arrive.

The dream shifted yet again and I see myself sitting on the floor having the same blood covering my face as I saw in the tiny 1 second vision before. Just that it was not me, but a man with short blonde hair, blue eyes! Which could have been one of the men of my dream! However why was I the one with the bloody face and why was I actually looking at myself??? How can I look at myself when I am the one who is obviously bleeding? It was like I saw myself from a different viewpoint.

Energy Update

As it stands now I did not write a long time in this blog, however I am not so sure if anybody actually cares if it is here or not, as my statistics show a very low visit number… I am thinking of deleting the blog, as it does not serve any purpose. I was hoping to reach other people and to help them through it. But so far I am sharing my stories and my experiences with lovely friends on Facebook and not many people interact here anyway. So what difference does it make, if there is one more blog. By now there are so many of us who go through all these energetic changes, that you probably all have your sources already and I just write a diary here for myself.

However I have one update to make. As it happened yesterday I was hit with an emotional pain right straight into my heart… I should not think this way about it, it should have let me cold. But it did not. I will not write about it here now again, it’s all on my FB wall and most who actually read this blog know about it already, so I will leave it out here for now.

After this emotional pain subsided somewhat through focusing on my passengers and talking to them on the rides I came back home in the evening and we were settling down to watch our series (The Vampire Diaries & The Originals) As I was watching TVD, I felt an odd sensation in my chest! It felt like the inside of my chest suddenly started bubbling and I felt a cool but slight tickling sensation. I knew it was an heart energy rush or expansion or possibly a try to calm me down. I think it worked. I never realized this, but it was the first time that something literally touched my heart and I actually felt it! this sensation subsides very quickly as I got aware of it. and did not return since then.

However I have troubles meditating now… It seems like any connection at all is not there anymore… I tried meditating last evening, but there was only a huge NOTHING. No sensations, no tones, except the always persistent white noise that I can hear since my first activation! No pictures, no light. Nothing 😦 As if nothing at all is happening for me anymore. I really don’t know if I lost it or something… But it just feels empty right now and I miss the days when the energy was strong and I started seeing visions, lights, orbs etc. It seems like there is nothing there anymore 😦 Which is weird as usually after my period the energy rushes up again. But this time it subsided and went into break or something 😦 It does not feel good, especially not within another heartache!

Current manifestation of the shift

As I am again starting to experience certain things that I already went through a longer time ago, I suddenly felt the need to update the current list of manifestations of the shift and the energy that is constantly pouring on earth and into all beings! Some are sensitive to the changes, and others got through common symptoms, which however are directly related to the energy and frequency shift!

CURRENT LIST 01/25/2016

  • Constant very strong surges of electricity release in my spine, upper back area as well as my legs. Sometimes a leg suddenly feels like there is a tiny electric leak that spills all around! As if all the neurons and nerves fire up with sparks!
  • Activity on my head, it feels the whole day as if something is fizzling in my hair, sometimes it feels like something big is crawling on top, there is some kind of air movement going on.
  • Internal shiver and chills
  • My legs are buzzing , when I have them crossed I can literally feel the electric movement inside. Energy flow active!
  • Spasms and twitches in weird areas (spine, buttocks, both eyebrows, chest, my ribs especially after sneezing)
  • High ringing pitch that sounds like there is some kind of racing whistle sitting beside my head or above my head!
  • Sometimes a very low tone that sounds like Binaural Beats, or a very slow train, it is a very loud sound and happened so far twice! Back in the past and the last couple of days it came back!
  • Weird hunger increase with not correlating loss of weight… Once again I just dropped seemingly over night a few pounds. I was 110 lbs and now I have 104 lbs…
  • Hunger at odd hours. Believe it or not, it is 11:07 PM and I just cooked 2 eggs to eat the protein because I was starving! I know that with my first big Kundalini event I lost a lot of pounds too and then after it was over I regained them. But it is literally a whole lot of pounds that just fall away over night!
  • At the same time sensitivity against mushrooms. My stomach could not handle them very well the last 2 days…
  • A lot of number synchronicity again, like talking about something and then encountering it in my own life. (example: Two friends Dayna and Karin talked to me about Orion and Osiris. As I came back from my work today I passed a street at 4:44 PM that was called ORION AVE! How big are the chances for that to happen? When I passed the street I did not even have my navigation system on! So I found that street out of coincidence it seems…)
  • Heart center activity, as I feel a slight rumbling inside my chest. As I was wearing my bra today and it is very tight I could feel the rumble in my chest because of the pressure it was easier to feel. Very odd sensation of something moving and it is not the heart, the physical  hear does not feel like a fluttering, buzzing engine!
  • Weird light phenomenon, as I sit in my room for work or just entertainment I see many times white shadows passing directly through my eyes. Sometimes it even feels as if this white shadow hits my eyes for a brief second. Another odd phenomenon.

I think I covered everything, but if I missed something I will just add it at some point. But for now it should give you an idea what I experience currently!

New Adventure & new sensations

My new adventure has finally begun. I am finally settled into Uber and can drive whenever our single car is available. I have to say when you start something new, I think it doesn’t matter how big or small it is, you will feel some kind of fear creeping in. I was very nervous when I went out the first time on 01/12. I did 2 rides just to get a feeling for it. My first 2 rides where pretty easy. A young student who wanted to go home from a lunch place. And then two girls who wanted to go home from a store in a mall on the same lot where our Sprouts Farmers Market is located.

The first day I did drive for Uber I observed something interesting. When I came home I felt a constant buzzing in my legs, and head. It was a weird feeling and I literally could feel the electricity flowing and buzzing inside my spine! In the night I was so buzzed that I actually could not fall asleep. when I finally fell asleep I was so deep that I did not even remember having any dreams.

The next day was a problem and my husband needed the car almost all day long… so I could not drive. Today however I was out again, my husband sadly caught a tiny throat cold and is acting like he is dying… So I stayed home for a while and helped him even more than I already do. After a while I could go out at 2:22 PM and got my first call from a young student (boy) who wanted to be picked up from a school to get home. The second ride was another kid and his friend from yet another school… (feels almost as if I am a driver for students lol) However I then went online one more time and got a call from Malibu… Oddly enough the ride was 13 minutes away and I thought why would she pick me, no other driver around? However I was happy anyway, because I finally could enjoy the whole sight of the ocean while we drove to her destination. She came from London and is to visit in  L.A.

On the way back home it became suddenly dark and I was in terrible traffic, because of an accident. I started feeling weird feeling inside my head. Pumping, pulling, and pushing. I also felt light headed. Suddenly out of nowhere my moldavite leather necklace opened itself and the stone fell into my shirt up front… I thought “what the heck?

I still feel buzzing and a weird pulse is felt on my forehead. It could be because I am out now driving that I suck in more light and energy and this makes the energy extremely strong!

Nightly meditation and dream

Today was not a lot of time as we were preparing the whole day for my husbands concert. But I tried to remember everything from the night before so I could write it down in the evening. I am kind of beaten up, as I was also bringing people up and down the hill to get to the house. Was not a perfect parking situation but it worked out anyway.

My experience from last evenings meditation was amazing. I started out with lying on my back and closing my eyes. I started doing my energy awareness exercises again and started this time with the hands and then with the feet.I felt short energy surges in both my thumbs and big toes. At some point I just let every control go and just left my eyes closed and observed and tried to feel instead of to ask for something to happen.

After a few minutes of this I started falling deeper into it and it was then that I suddenly felt a nudge or some kind of very subtle push on the right side of my head that made it move a little to the left. It happened a second time. After a while I must have fallen too deep as I was just suddenly asleep and don’t even remember when it actually happened… However I had a disturbing dream.

DREAM: Needle injection & Field with strange people

Sadly I do not remember a lot of the dream just key elements that stuck with me, for obvious reasons. The first element and possible dream symbol was that of being chased again and injected with a needle. I have no idea why these needle dreams keep coming back in all kinds of different scenarios! But this time I was once again on some kind of field with many different strangers, people I never saw before. And we were supposed to do something, which I do not remember anymore…

However key element of this whole dream was the end of it when someone captured me and pushed a needle inside me to inject something, which again I do not know what it was…