Another weird dream

Tonight I finally had a dream again that I can remember even the next morning! My husband got hit in the meantime with yet another cold, but this time it seems to be Virus related… That means he is already sick for a month now… The dream was nice at first and then turned to a nightmare!

DREAM: Musical, Ride, Threat for death

The beginning of the dream was like an overlook at something. I saw my husband’s music in a musical setting. He composed one of the many Phantom of the Opera movies and I suddenly saw a stage for a big musical and all the stage decor etc. It was just magical!

As the dream shifted I was on my way back someplace and I saw this black car. Which I jumped into. It was most likely  a Lyft ride, but I was the passenger! As I got into the car the inside suddenly morphed and it became a square room. Like literally it did not look like the inside of a car anymore! There was a square table and a man sat on the left in front of me and a woman on the right! As I looked at everything I realized that there were suddenly steering-wheels coming out of the table. The woman took the wheel and started driving. The dream felt very real to me. I looked out of the window while driving and my gaze suddenly fell on the curb, there was a big crow screaming at 2 grey cats (lol grey??? hmmm) As I looked closer I saw that the crow was protecting a couple of baby crows! And I said out loud “Oh my goodness baby crows!

Suddenly the dream shifted and we arrive at my car, as we got out of theirs the car outside just looked like a normal black car again. They came out and looked at my windshield and saw the Lyft trade dress. They asked me questions and there was mysteriously some kind of cellphone lying on my dashboard on the right side beneath the lyft logo. Also some kind of note with weird letters and numbers and they asked me about these… But I have no idea how it continued from here, as the dream suddenly shifted.

I suddenly saw a man, he had short hair, looked really, really mad and insane! He had a fire-thrower and was trying to burn someone or something. I got scared but at the same moment I wanted to help the person/thing that he tried to burn, as the thrower suddenly started acting up and no flames came out anymore I ran towards him and tried to knock him down. Sadly that did not work very well for me and he looked at me and tried to grab me. In that moment I caught an hose and pointed it at him, some fluid came out and into his eyes. But he didn’t care and tried to grab hold on me. I felt scared and panicked. As he knocked me down and tried to strangle me I was screaming in my dream. Until to the last moment when my husband suddenly appeared and knocked him over. I don’t remember anything from here on. I have no idea what happened, if I woke up or something else… But this was a terrifying experience…


New Year starts with huge BANG

Well I did not expect it to be like that honestly… I was feeling from my heart that the new year would be amazing and full of surprises. But I did not in 1000 years envision that the New Year would start out with a huge bang… Yesterday a friend of mine (Karin) told me about breaking things and not knowing what one is really doing, like a baby fresh in the world. And then in the evening I had my own share of breaking. In a literal sense actually…

My husband decided to take a nap in the early evening and slept actually until 6 PM or so. I felt and knew that he was kind of down again. A lot of it actually always comes when there is a huge M Class Flare, which happened yesterday according to my friend (Dayna) who thankfully always posts the newest activities. So as the evening got older and older I heard my husband wake up and opening his laptop. I thought I will go to him and greet him with compassion. So I wanted to get inside the bed and said to him “Did you have a good rest?” Without any evil or bad intentions. But he then shut off his laptop again and did not look at me and said “Are you blind?“.

I asked “why?“. And he started again with his depressed talk and said “I don’t know, I think I am too much for you! You just don’t know me at all…” I don’t want to write the whole fight here, but the end result was a huge argument about understanding and duplication. And of course he used triggers again that were from the past. Which I thought we already let behind us… Also we had an argument about what EGO is.

My husband said again as if he knew everything better “Do you actually know what ego is? Many people just use it because someone invented it a long time ago… I studied everything about it” (He said the same about Kundalini BTW.) “Sigmund Freud invented it, I read all about it.” Then I interrupted him “Do you actually know him? Did you meet with him?” He shook his head and I continued “Then how can you say these things? Sigmund Freud was one of the people who had a Spiritual Awakenings otherwise he would have never come up with it in first place.” Anyway it continued like crazy and he actually said “Maybe you should leave me, maybe you would be more happy with someone who is never depressed and all floating over clouds… However these people are usually not very aware…” I just had enough of this and threw a few things at him that he needed to swallow on…

To not make this whole thing too long I would like to write about a dream I had in the night after the fight. It was another one of these very realistic dreams and I actually had the feeling I was really there. Everything felt so clear and real.

DREAM: Joe, Car ride, Accident, Fall, Surviving

The dream started out in a bar kind of setting. I was standing at the bar and Joe or someone who looked exactly like him stood right beside me. I  approached him and talked to him a while. He told me that he would be going for 4 weeks to visit his daughter. I asked him, if he was married. Somehow I never got an answer to that question though.

As the dream shifted and we both were riding in a car along a mountain road. I was sitting on the passenger seat and he was driving. My seat was very close to the front and I always needed to look back when I wanted to look at him. He smiled and said I should move it back a little bit. So I did and was then on the same level as him seat wise. In the dream I looked a few times in his direction and then came the moment. I suddenly see the road in front of us and I see how the car loses control and jumps over a mountain cliff.

Suddenly another shift in the dream and we were falling like we actually jumped with the whole car out of a plane or something else. I saw the whole landscape underneath us through the windshield and I was terrified by this fast approach towards earth. Something suddenly snapped. I think I took control of the dream here. Before we reached the ground and would have been smashed to pieces I decided in perfect timing to open the passenger door and jump out with a roll down the hill. As the car behind me crashed and probably killed the man (Joe or not, I have no idea who he was).

After that the dream shifted and I do not remember what happened in this part, but I think I tried to explain to people what happened and that he won’t come back.

It was a very dramatic dream and the fall actually did something, as I am pretty sure without control of the scene the car would have killed both of us.