Dreams: Surgery, Implant & Swimming pool

Last night I had some disturbing dreams. For one reason or another I would sort them into the nightmare category but I was oddly enough I was very distanced from these dreams. Such as acknowledging them but not being emotionally influenced by them. I had 2 dreams they always seem to appear in a set of two that I can remember very vividly!


In the first dream I find myself in the hands of yet another doctor. No idea what these surgery dreams mean, but the fact that they appear more and more tells me that there IS something in my subconscious mind that I cannot work through other than in my dreams! Very interesting that these are the dreams that I remember completely with all details!

I felt that the doctor was not there to protect me or to free me from something; I felt he wanted to do something to me. I remember very vividly that he tried to sting me with a long metallic needle. I see the needle up close on my arm and as I fight to get rid of his grab I see how the needle is pulled out and on my skin was a tiny red spot left like after doctors suck your blood!

(Interesting enough these tiny red dots appeared on my skin almost daily, they are very tiny really like needle marks and they are interestingly enough at the spots where I felt the most energy pulling and energetic movements. When I scratch these tiny little spots they go away. But after a second they appear again as if bleeding through. My right arm, see below, has 3 of these weird dots in a triangular shape.)


After the needle was pulled I suddenly saw something weird moving underneath my skin up the arm and towards the head. In that moment I suddenly was confronted with a x-ray screen of some sort. I looked at it and there was this little bug like creature sitting right in the cerebrum. Oddly enough I was not affected by it emotionally; otherwise I would have woken up out of panic. The bug did something and as I was forced to look at it I saw how it was removing its own head many times in a row and I actually made a comment on that in my dream, asking what is it doing it seems like it grows each time a new head. This insect almost looked like a cockroach… eww… But then something strange happened in the end while the creature grew bigger each time it removed its head suddenly the cocoon or whatever it was broke open and a full grown shepherd dog jumped out of that place. Completely out of context of everything so weird…


In the 2nd dream I saw something very disturbing and I have no idea how that is connected to the surgery dream, as it came right afterwards. I see two men one left and one on the right side of my husband. They all stand in front of a huge swimming pool that was above the ground. Suddenly they lift my husband up and throw him up and into the swimming pool. Jut that it did not work properly and instead of being thrown inside the pool my husband hit his back and fell on the ground. It appears that I cannot move because I am somehow forced to watch this whole scene… Suddenly they lift him up again and start another attempt of throwing him inside the pool. But this time I see how my husband almost went inside the pool but then he landed with his neck on the edge of the pool and hit the floor again, at this point panic overcame me and I actually thought they killed him as it looked like he broke his neck! I ran to my husband and hugged him. Screaming his name to see if he responds. And he did after a while. I remember being angry at these two other men who I cannot remember anymore. I have no idea what they were wearing, and even how they looked like.

My conclusion about the 2nd dream. Interestingly enough my husband is suffering from some back and neck pain since some time now. As it once happened with me somebody asked him how the neck pain started and my husband’s answer was “I just woke up in the morning”. The exact same reason it happened for me a couple of weeks ago! I was sleeping like I always do and as I woke up I suddenly have a stiff back and it hurts to move to the right side. The next day it moved into the neck and I had for 2 days the same problem as my husband as now for almost 3 weeks. He once described it to me “I don’t know what it is, someone is missing something here… I know every doctor said there is nothing wrong in my neck, but I feel this weird heaviness and pressure in my neck that goes up my head and then I feel this dizziness going on…

I think the dream could be an answer to what may have happened. However it was a weird reason to have neck and back pain from two men throwing you and hitting your back on a swimming pool edge!


Before I went to sleep last night I was meditating. I am still hoping to get more of these memory light flashes that show me things that I do not remember. One of these light flashes showed me a word in letters I did not know, it looked very foreign to me and I remember that there was a weird looking E in this word. Funny yesterday I saw an interview of an abductee and he explained every time “THEY” took him he found himself in a white room with softly lit yellow light and there was a screen in front of them. He learned a language that THEY use and he was supposed to learn it and find the human alphabet in order to communicate. And when I saw this board with the ET language my jaw dropped, because a few of these symbols looked exactly like what I remember from one of my vision flashes!

In my meditation I suddenly felt a weird feeling inside my head, as if my head was actually falling in a void. I always somehow interrupt this feeling, because as soon I get conscious of it, it stops right away. However I fell somehow asleep afterwards and do not remember anything until I got these weird dreams.

New nightly experience & new connections


Last night I slept alone, first of all my abdomen was in pain… (got my period yesterday) and second I did not want to toss around if I could not fall asleep because of it and wake my husband up. Before I went to bed however I went on to the balcony and as if I was lead to it I looked up the sky and watched the stars, as I moved my gaze around I suddenly saw one of the stars shooting out of sight! It was so fast, I focused my eyes on the spot where I saw the shooting “star” and wondered, because the same shooting star I saw a couple of days ago already! 2 in a week is a little much. I never saw one in my entire life and suddenly 2 in a row? I stayed a little longer and then saw another star that suddenly started moving very slowly to the right side. it had the exact same size as all the other stars but instead of standing still it was moving very slowly. (probably faster, but it was too far away). I was in awe of this sight as this was also something I never saw before. I looked around and as I wanted to look back at the moving star it was suddenly out of sight, I could not see it anymore…

I went inside afterwards and decided to go to bed. It was around 10:30 PM but I was really tired and wanted to get over the first day of my period, which is the most painful… I lay on my back in our guest room right beside the windows. I decided to meditate a little bit and just see if anything would come up memory wise, without giving it too much thought. After some time had passed I suddenly felt a weird heaviness on my head, it almost felt like the head was about to lift off very weird sensation. And in that moment I suddenly for the first time ever heard a very clear clicking on my right ear. I usually hear it from the left ear. But this time it was very clear on the right one and loud as well! The ear that was pointing towards the window. At some point I must have fallen asleep.

I do not remember any dreams however. As if the whole night was just blank…


I made a few more connections. In all the articles and interviews of other abductees there is one common thing happening. All of them felt before the event some kind of synchronicity of sudden numbers repeat to show up. As well as other phenomena such as cats and dogs acting weird before the actual abduction. They can feel and seem them in their etheric form and are acting weird and aggressive. Also abductees experienced a weird phenomena that after an abduction, mostly one day later their house was buzzed by very low flying unmarked black helicopters of military style. Or other black helicopters that would circle the house like crazy.

  1. First clue, when I was a child one of our dogs was sometimes not always weird towards me. But also to my father (I believe this is connected, who knows WHY my father drank so much alcohol, he never said anything) The dog would look at me or above me or beside me? And growl at me like a crazy dog. I never understood why this dog supposedly hated me so much, while other times he came and wanted to be pet by me…
  2. I see tons of 11:11, 2:22, 4:44 and 5:55 lately but also before I got glimpses of what might is happening to me.
  3. I never thought anything about it, but our house WAS recently buzzed a lot by low flying black helicopters. I saw two of them flying very slowly over our house and I am certain I saw military personnel sitting in the open doors. But also other kind of helicopters seemed to circle around a LOT for a few days in a row! First when I read about abductees experiences I suddenly thought wait a second this happened here as well…

After effects of abduction were reported by most all experiencers. So it could feel as if they were drugged during the night, getting up without being rested, as if they were not even asleep in the night but full awake. Sleeping longer than usual because of it, or waking up and falling right back asleep until the drugged feeling stopped. Headaches afterwards, strong energies inside body and especially strong electrical interference after abductions! Ear tones before or afterwards and heightened phenomena right after abduction. Many people described that there was a pattern and after writing a log and journals they could find out when the abductions were taking place like 1-3 of a month and 20-23 of a month. Can change but many times it’s on time. Nose bleeds after abductions in the morning or during the day. And weird marks on the body such as bruises, scratches, red marks like from a needle that one cannot explain.

  1. My husband remarked something like this since some time now. His quote “I don’t know whats going on with me, I feel almost drugged. I am dragging during the day. I sleep long and don’t feel rested…”
  2. I had strong headaches and weird sores on my head after waking up and also my husband seems to experience head pressure, heaviness on his head. (abductees experience a weird veil in their surroundings that almost feels pressuring)
  3. Sometimes my husband loses his hearing on one ear or complains about a weird buzzing in his ears and says it’s tinnitus (perfect programming attempt, make the person believe it’s nothing out of the ordinary) I have ear tones as well, clicking, crunching, beeps and ringing (just as I wrote this my right ear started ringing…)
  4. Nose bleeds are very common for me… When I wake up in some morning I blow my nose it’s like dried up blood clots come out, sometimes during the day one nose hole suddenly starts bleeding.
  5. I know that usually after my period ends I have the strongest phenomenon happening, sometimes also before it happens. So for me the pattern goes around the period. Seems whatever is happening it happens strongest after the cycle ends!
  6. Body marks and weird phenomena before or after: my husband told me from two experiences that he had in his youth. One was that he was sitting at a lake and as the sun was setting the water became almost black, but then out of a sudden the whole environments were warped. his vision became weird as he said and it almost seemed as if everything began shifting like going further away. He was scared about it. It happened another time inside a hotel room in Denmark, he went through the hall and suddenly it seemed as if the hall became longer and longer. The second experience was that he told me once about his encounter as a kid in his bedroom. he saw something, light beings or something. He never explained completely to me what he saw, because he feels I am not ready to know about it… He says he will tell me once I am ready. (I won’t say anymore here) On top of that my husband has  weird triangle mark on his back. When I asked him about it he came up with a weird story about it. He said he was sitting in an opera or so and suddenly the bench crashed with him sitting on it, he fell on his back and hit that spot. It was bleeding and after that it was a triangle. For me it sounds more like a screening memory after abduction! Of course programming happens so we believe what we were told and what we see as our memories. A perfect triangle mark from an accident? hmmmm

But knowing all this I have a strong feeling that my experience of Awakening has a lot to do with being with my husband and his encounters. I know he saw something but he completely disregards it as something what it really is not. He was made believe that his encounter was some kind of an implant and it got triggered by something. So he does not even see the connection anymore between everything he experiences. I mean literally he almost seems hypochondriac with all his weird body stuff that is going on currently. And that must have a reason that he himself seems not to see.

Something IS happening and I wish I could remember something that completely shows me what it was!

Answers from my mother and a always repeating pattern!

So as I am I research everything so much so that no doubt stays open. I come to the conclusion that I have had experienced more than I can remember from my early childhood up to this day! there are certain aspects of my childhood where I remember key elements but the rest is like erased or completely crumbled inside my mind! For example I know for certain that I was very afraid of my closet in Germany when I was very young. why or because of what however is missing from my memory. I have no idea what made me afraid…

Another evidence of that same phenomenon was happening at the backside of our backyard, I know and remember that I was extremely scared once I crossed a certain point in our backyard and then just started running like crazy towards the house.

This morning I decided to ask my mother about these open questions. I asked her if she remember from the past what I was afraid of in both instances, why or from what i was scared from my closet and if she ever had a similar experience when she was younger and her answers are kind of confirming to me that there was more which I just cannot recall anymore.

  1. My mother remembered that one evening I was crying like crazy running down the stairs and screamed that there is a monster in my closet! What kind of monster she could not answer me. I was so afraid at that time and she told me that I did not want to go upstairs anymore. (Which I do not remember! I do not remember that I was even so scared to not go up to my room anymore) So my father went upstairs and checked the closet and came downstairs and told us that nothing was there. Still not really believing what he said, my mother took me upstairs and she let me open the closet and nothing was there. She told me it must have been a bad dream! I know I was not afraid of a dream, in fact I do not even remember that I was dreaming before I was scared out of nowhere…
  2. My mother told me that I used to play with my toys in the back part of our yard and I had a sand hill there which I used to play in with dinosaurs (I remember that) But then one evening I got scared by something back there and did not want to go back there anymore. My mother said something in the bushes or so, I never told her actually what I saw or heard, but I was so scared that it took a long time for me to regain courage to go back there. (Again I have no recollection whatsoever, WHAT the heck scared me there) It almost seems that key elements are missing from my memory and replaced by some screening memory but what happened in between is gone…
  3. My mother also told me that she and her mother were living in an apartment that had a door man downstairs and they liked him a lot, he was always very nice. But then out of nowhere my mother started having this repeating dream of this man, they came into the house floor and saw the man but then out of nowhere the man would disappear and a white noise TV screen appeared which made my mother afraid and jerked her out of sleep every single time. If i had not read so much about other abductees stories I would say it was just a bad dream, but the way this dream was portrayed was smelling a lot like a VRS Virtual reality Screen dream, which is used to make the person think they dream this while they in reality are abducted without their knowing.

Now I remembered after this that I also had two key dreams when I was very young. One of them was me standing in a dark mansion and suddenly there was this guy in black coat, with a top hat and no face. I got scared and ran away and every single time I would wake up in panic after this scene. The dream would repeat almost nightly!

Another dream i had which is a key dream in these situations is that somebody gave me a black box and whenever I opened it and looked inside the box I got so scared that I woke up. These were nightmares without really having to be nightmares,  I was scared without a reason of a black box and I did not even see the thing that was inside after opening it, all I remember is that I got scared and after that everything was black. No memory whatsoever what happened after that dream.

Now the interesting part from today. I found this amazing page where a doctor interviewed a lot of abductees (mostly women) about their experiences, which could be retrieved with Regression hypnosis. the one thing most all of them had in common was that the Grays who were most reported, gave them in their experiences BLACK BOXES and whenever they looked inside their brain got flashed by terrible pictures of events happening or soon to be happening. Many of these women also got told what will happen to humanity and that they are the CHOSEN ones. Many females went through ova extraction and helped somehow creating hybrid races, children who look like children but are most part Alien in genetics. What is also very interesting is that all of these women who had abduction experiences or sightings the days after or preceding an abduction saw the sudden arrival of weird unnamed and unbranded black helicopters that were flying very low and always above her house. Now call me paranoid but since some time now during the day and also late in the night I hear them flying over our house as well! One day I was standing outside as I hear this extreme loud chopper noise and I look towards the sky and there were two black helicopters with open doors and Army men standing at these doors looking outside. I did not see from where they were coming and neither did I think anything weird about it, but the fact that ALL experiencers saw these helicopters on a daily basis and also had abductions with military personal tells me something is going on.

If you want know more and see what I am talking about read these interviews about these women who all report one way or the other how their abductions came to their consciousness and how they lost time during just day to day work etc. And on top of that the marks and implants that resulted from these experiences. Scoop marks, sudden red dots on the skin that look like needle stings right after blood test was done, blue spots that look like you hurt yourself during the night? Or even unexplainable back pain and stiffness in the morning? All these are reported.


Dreams: Man in Black, gift economy

Experiences from the night:

Last night I had some very strong energetic experiences. I read a lot about the abduction theories and from other people who went through it and are still part of it. Supposedly they do not need to be present in physical form, they can work on the body in a weird metaphysical way. They change DNA and even implant through an etheric dimension. Which makes sense because none of the abductees ever saw a mark or wound that would suggest how an implant got into the skin! No scars, nothing. Why? Because they are there just not physical, they are working from another dimension and break down the metaphysical structure of the body and then work inside. We feel it as if it was physical!

Back story, before I could hear these ear sounds and after my Awakening I was sitting at my computer working as I suddenly felt the air become very dense beside my left ear, I actually felt something entering my ear! The same happened a few times already with my nostrils, it’s like some kind of dense energy is entering my nose, which brought a lot of sneezing attacks with it. I know that something happened to me when I finally Awoke!

I felt a lot of pulsing going on in my head last night, as well as my heart and legs. There was one moment when my head felt as if it was going to explode any moment and after that I felt a gentle touch on my forehead, it literally felt like something was stroking over my forehead!

At the same moment my legs suddenly jerked up and the ringing in the ears was very clear and louder than usual. I have a feeling sooner or later I will put all the missing pieces together and then I will remember!

DREAM 1: A weird job & a man in Black suit

I was looking for a job that I could enjoy and I found myself in a store I never went to before. I was talking to someone in that store and asked for the job that was being hired for. So this man guided me to a back door inside the store and as soon as he opened that door I found myself in a room that looked kind of like a class room. It had many chair rows and the room was already filled with tons of people, young and old. Some were standing and some sitting. I remember looking at the huge crowd of people and acknowledging them with nodding my head. Then my gaze fell on what they all were doing. They were preparing some kind of baking mixture, rolling with wooden rolling pins and shaping the baking mixture in some kind of form. Then my gaze fell on a man sitting in front of everybody else, like a teacher of some sort. Oddly enough he was all dressed up in a black suit, completely out of context of the environment we were sitting in. All was full of dust and crumbles of baking mixtures and this guy sits there with a black suit… (Weird though, because the picture of persons in black follows me since childhood inside my dreams. I am usually running away from them). This man in black looked at me and explained what was needed for this backing mixture to take form of the shape that he chose. He pointed his finger towards a white wall and there was this weird face with an abnormal wide lower Jaw. It was the face and shape of a man and supposedly we were indoctrinated to create this shape out of the mixture. I looked closer at the face shape and thought to myself, “what a weird face, what’s up with this extreme wide jaw structure?”

At that moment my dream shifted and brought me to the next dream.

DREAM 2: Another job, suggesting gift economy

In the next dream I was looking for another job this time it was inside a store that I actually know. I read about an interesting concept that Sprouts Farmers Market were working on and different stores had this idea to give customers some kind of ticket, whenever they would buy Rice Milk from the store! I remember that it was an amazing job, because all you had to do was stand as a cashier and whenever a customer bought Rice Milk I would give them a ticket for a free dinner at Sprouts! And I would earn money for giving the tickets away!

The first store I went into and asked if they still offer this job informed me that they do not have these tickets anymore and do not offer that job. So I went to another Sprouts Market and got the job. I was also informed that the other manager from the other location obviously still had the tickets but decided to commit fraud by holding on to the free tickets for himself…

I remember working at the store and giving tons of free tickets to all the customers who bought Rice Milk. And in the end of the dream I remember seeing the huge backside of the store were all the amazing food for dinner was stored and everybody who got a ticket got a free dinner! It was an amazing dream and totally in contrast to the one from before.