Energy reaches kind of a high point!

Last night was intense to say the least! it was so intense… And on top of that my husband still continued to drag around that stupid fight about one silly sentence of mine… He does not understand that the only reason why he was upset about it is that he has some issues to resolve for himself. There is no way on earth that someone starts a huge fight just 3 days after telling you that they fell in love with you “again” that suddenly this “love” breaks a part because of ONE nonsense sentence which I did not even mean as bad or anything like that. It was more in a joking way. So as the energy reached a high point towards the evening I felt strong energy pushes and surges along my back that directly shot up to the heart center. There was a moment last evening as I watched a movie that I actually thought this is HUGE! I mean I never felt it so crystal clear before. But my whole lower back was filled with dense mega charged energy, that felt like electric wires left and right were discharging electromagnetism! It’s no wonder as I talked for a long time over messages on Facebook with another individual (Jason) who goes through similar experiences with his Kundalini! No wonder that my energy got enormous after these conversations!

As the night approached my husband told me he needs to be alone for this night, so I slept alone. I took the chance to again try to meditate and see where it goes without forcing anything! There was a sudden moment I have no idea what actually happened in this moment! It was too weird to comprehend! I don’t know if I fell asleep for a second or something else was taking place, but as my mouth again fell open widely while in total relaxation I suddenly heard a very loud and weird noise that I this time observed for a brief moment and I felt it came right from the center of my head! It was not even in my ears! It was like a very loud cracking of paper or something else, it’s too difficult for me to explain what I heard. But the moment I did hear it my whole awareness got intense again and the sound just like that disappeared. I thought “What the hell???!”

As I then tried to repeat this by closely falling asleep it did not happen again. This is the thing these experiences just happen, you have no control over them whatsoever! It did not happen again! But I fell asleep.

In the morning at 9 AM my husband came to my room and asked me to join him again. As I went to the bathroom and joined him in the bed he was already asleep again I suppose. That was quick lol… I also fell asleep very fast, but something happened and I am baffled by it and still try to figure out if it was an OOBE! I suddenly got aware of a visual I was standing upstairs in our old home in Germany! And I went downstairs during the walk downstairs I saw that my vision suddenly become crystal clear, I could see the walls, as I remembered them. I saw the dogs downstairs. And in this moment I was so happy I could feel it, seeing the dogs of my mother! Suddenly the visual blurred a bit and out of instinct I rubbed my hands together as I read a few times already that this helps and indeed the visual came back. I continued downstairs. Then as I turned left into the kitchen, I got aware of a red glowing number on the microwave which was not on the right spot! It was standing right in front of me on the counter, while I know it was always on the left! I do not remember the number though… The dogs were playing and I actually kneed down to look at my old dog Luna, she was happy to see me. I wondered was that really possible that they could see me??? I only had visual through my eyes which is uncommon, I always see myself from another perspective in my dreams. and yet I seem to have had control over the experience! As I decided before that to rub my hands!

I continued through the kitchen and moved towards the living room. I saw my mother and my father sitting on the couch on the right side of the room. I know for sure the couch and sofa are now on the left side! But something else was weird. My mother appeared with no hair just kind of little blonde but it looked almost as if she was bold. I was kind of surprised… I wanted them to see me but they did not see me… So I moved ahead and grabbed a paper napkin from the floor and put it into the garbage bin. But they did not see it… The next step was to push something in front of my mother on the table. As I did this I felt the object on my pointer finger as if I really touched it. In this moment the visual distorted and I could not retain it anymore. As I got aware of the red hue in front of me and the light show spreading out I suddenly felt a very weird sensation. It felt like I got seriously electric zapped inside my left and right ear. But more inside the left one! As I tried to get another visual while I was aware I got zapped again and soon afterwards it was time to wake up anyway. If this was my first OOBE I am actually quite amazed, because it seemed that I had control, over pushing things, playing with my dog abs rubbing my hands


Experiment with Alpha waves!

So after reading a little bit, I found someone who said that conscious OOBEs and Astral Projections happen from in the Alpha state, shortly before you fall asleep. If the Alpha waves could be constant it would be possible to stay conscious during the “falling” asleep moment. So I thought to myself, rather than reading online and just sucking in information, I will just try it as I usually learn more through my own experiences!

So last night I lay in bed on my back, placed the earphones inside my ears and started a 1 hour Alpha Isochronic beat! The first thin I recognized was that the tone of Alpha is very soothing. It did not take long to see some effects of it. I caught myself falling asleep as I suddenly heard myself “snoring”??? It sounded like a snore but I am actually not sure if that was really what happened. As I recognized that I jerked up quite a bit.

A few seconds later my left leg kicked upwards and also my right arm started jerking. In the matter of fact I was so soothed by the Alpha wave track that it was hard to not fall asleep lol… However I recognized something very early on, my body started to vibrate very subtle. I felt the vibration of the beat in my ears and my body somehow.

However I did not manage to have an OOBE. And I did also not have any dreams that I can remember, so I must have had a really deep sleep.

On a side note this month I got somewhat surprised by my periodic cycle… I did feel abdominal cramps and pulling before Monday but I thought it was something I ate or Sacral Chakra clearing. I did not see any spotting at all and then all of a sudden my period kicked in full force on Monday without any real warning. This is 10 days way too early. Seems like I need to expect it now every beginning of the month. So weird… Something in my cycle got completely confused so it seems. Could be related to the recent Class M Flare and solar storm activities.

Energy rush and sudden noise!

Last night as I was lying in bed I started doing my daily energy exercises. Stimulating the toes, feet, legs, fingers, hands and arms for maximum energy circulation and activation of the tertiary energy pathways. I am beginning to get very sensitive to these exercises and I feel very fast energy starting to flow! Which is such a beautiful state to be in, if energy becomes stagnant you become moody, depressed, life is not worth anything. But as soon the energy body gets active and the energy is moving through the whole system things change very quickly.

I did the spinal bounce a few times, doing this you place your center of awareness into the tailbone, then place it on your crown and  a second later again on tailbone. You literally bounce awareness back and forth and after a while the energy responds and you feel it flowing to these spots of focused awareness! (Energy flows where attention goes – so true!

After these exercises I just stayed calm and relaxed further with awareness breathing. After a while of doing this I started seeing purple light swirls and tiny forms in front of my closed eyelids. At some point I suddenly felt a strong energy rush coming from the bottom of my feet and surging up to the forehead. This sensation was new and I did not experience it jet!

After this I just observed as suddenly my left ear started buzzing in a pulse like motion, I felt the vibration like www www www inside my ear and at the same moment I heard a weird cracking sound in my ear. It sounded like cracking plastic paper or paper bags of some sort. I knew this sound was one of the onsets of an OOBE! I guess this thought stopped it, I suddenly forgot what I need to do and so the noise stopped and nothing happened… Such a shame… However this was a success regardless, because I never heard this buzzing in combination with cracking paper in my ear before and it was quite loud!

Teachers always come at the right moment

I really need to write a blog post about this observation. Every time in my life when I am close to giving up there is a sudden shift and I get the idea to contact someone who was always there. However I never thought about contact in first place…

It happened again. After months and months of trying to have an OOBE I finally pulled myself together and contacted Jason on Facebook. He does know a lot about OOBEs and has them almost nightly. So I thought who else could help me more with my troubles?

After contact was being made I was shown the material from Robert Bruce. He wrote a whole book about energy and Astral Projection and I was eagerly willing to read almost the whole book in just a matter of a few hours. I guess my husbands travel until Wednesday gave me time to study some stuff for myself.

I finally came to the conclusion what my problem was from the very beginning… I tried to get right at it with awareness and focus on my Third Eye and Heart chakra and there is the mistake right there. My energy body is not yet developed. I did not continue my energy work and of course how can I expect my energy body to build out of nothing… Including my spiritual tiredness and exhaustion the last couple of weeks. All of these symptoms are described in Robert’s book. The mistake I made was that I tried to stimulate the primary energy centers (main chakras) directly without any work with energy throughout my whole body first.

It made click right there and everything was making sense! My energy body needs to be build and stimulated before I can start focusing on the main chakras! The are many minor chakras and also ways to raise energy and it needs to be stored in the area between the navel and the pubic line. It’s called the Sub-Navel center.

Before I continue any endeavor of having an OOBE, I will now focus on building my energy body. As long as I have still body areas that I cannot address with my awareness there is still work to be done. I I have a lot of areas where I cannot place my awareness in. I just simply do not feel anything there. Like my Legs and some other parts of my body. How to stimulate the energy centers inside the body? By stroking and brushing with your awareness hands through the feet, legs, arms etc. until you feel the area, which means the energy begins to build. And THEN after that all primary energy centers need to be addressed, but never longer as needed. Means as soon you feel anything at all, go to the next chakra. As soon you feel something in a primary energy center, the chakra is active as needed.

I also learned that it’s not wise to stay too long on the sacral chakra, the sexual center, because it can ruin everything, when the energy body is not build correctly it feels like sexual arousal and where that leads everybody knows…

After these realizations I did the exercises and was surprised, because right afterwards I started feeling buzzing in my root chakra at the coccyx. (Base of tailbone) and also after the raising of energy into the Sub-Navel center I felt buzzing in this center as well, so the energy work does work and is necessary, especially for beginners who do not have any energy experience yet. It seems people who already do have OOBEs are fairly equipped with a strong energy body.

New method, try for OOBE – weird dream and another dull phase

Last night was the first night after having my period of sleeping together with my husband in one bed. I usually do like to sleep alone during this week, as I am sometimes just feeling cranky and I do not want to have anybody feel these cranky vibes. As I lay in the bed staring through the darkness I saw very quickly again these purple light swirls with open eyes. It’s kind of like when you do the mirror meditation just staring with a soft gaze into your eyes in a mirror, suddenly everything turns purple and you see the energy moving. That’s what happened as I just stared in the darkness.

I decided to try a new method I read about for an attempt of an OOBE. It seems to make a lot of sense that this method would bring on a very strong vibrational phase. So I though why not give it a try?

The method goes like this:

  • Lay comfortable on your back and close your eyes
  • Relax and shift your awareness towards your feet.
  • Stay there until you feel energy tingling, pulling sensations or really anything.
  • After this move your awareness including the energy feeling up your body towards the head
  • Stay there for a while until you feel the strong energies of the Third Eye activating
  • Now move this energy and your awareness back to your feet.
  • Do this as long as possible and each time get faster and it should bring on the Vibrations

Now I did this and felt very quickly that I can connect my awareness to the energy sensations that I feel and then move it around, while the energies seem to follow my awareness. It’s like magnetized. As they say “Energy flows where attention goes.”

After a few cycles of doing this method I suddenly felt a rush of energy and my right leg just jerked up and fell back on the mattress. I don’t think my husband felt anything, usually he wakes up when I make sudden movements, but this time nothing, no movement whatsoever. I continued trying, but at some point tiredness overcame me and I needed to stop and go to sleep instead… That’s where it became weird.

DREAM: Beach, old ship and sexual approach

I do not remember a lot about this dream, I know however that it was structure similar like a movie. It could have been an actual scene out of a movie. I do not remember if I saw everything out of my own eyes or if I saw myself from distance. It’s just too washy already…

I do remember however very vividly how a man approached me who was tall, had brown short hair, deep brown eyes and a very strong facial structure. He was trying to approach me for sexual intercourse and I do remember that I did not want it and tried to get away from him. I remember it all played out at a beach and there was this old ship that was some kind of stranded at that beach.

That’s actually everything I can remember, Sadly I waited too long for writing it down. But my husband kept me busy this morning so I had no chance to write everything down fresh after waking up…

Today is the 11/11 portal/gate and I don’t know why but I feel depressed, I am feeling cold, my nose is completely destroyed, the whole skin is red and wound because I am so cold my nose is dripping all day long and I cannot help it but blow my nose every few seconds… On top of that I have pressuring feelings and emotions again about my situation… I once again want to give away my pet bird… I once again think my husband does not give me anything anymore… He is always promoting how much he cares for me because he gives me everything I need… Material wise. But nothing that comes from soul and goes to soul and heart. And if I hint to him that yes he is right material wise he cares a lot and gives a lot. But he sees it as offensive towards him and usually says then well let’s see how you would get around if I would stop the material flow… let’s see how you would feel if I would not pay back the money at the end of the week that you paid for shopping etc. I don’t know if this is a manipulation technique or something else, but it surely feels every time as if he has a point and I am actually the one who has problems…

I really don’t know… But he does not make it easier for me. He is also in his depression and worries once again about no money coming in and no one calling, it’s too quiet etc… It just all pressures on me and does not help me to get out of my dull phase…

Regardless of this the energy is still strong, rushing and surging. Yesterday while watching a movie I actually felt the very well known stinging pains that sometimes happen in various body parts when the electrical current is buzzing a long time in one area. It just suddenly feels as if someone pushes a knife inside that spot. I felt it in my chest, but I also felt it in the left temple.

Night meditation – strong energy!

Wow I have no clue where I should actually start with this post! I am literally overwhelmed by how strong the energy is the last couple of days. I can only assume it has to do with the upcoming 11/11 gate portal!

When I went to bed I did the same routine as the last 2 days before already. I first lay comfortably on my back with my head a little bit lifted, using a pillow underneath. I left my eyes open and looked through the room in the darkness. Then I use I AM affirmations to overcome any lingering fear. And I have to say that this approach is amazing and helped me a lot! using I AM in front of positive sentences is very powerful and I could feel it!

After that I closed my eyes and concentrated first on my breath a few times, inhale-exhale. After that I shifted my focus back on the palm of my right hand and very soon I got aware of the electrical pulse buzzing in my palm. this focus on the hand is an amazing way to keep aware and focused for a very long time! It helped tremendously! I also realized that I am less effected by the random very loud cracks, bangs and ping sounds all around me in the room. Every single night when I meditate in the guest room my computer desk cracks like crazy, sometimes so loud I actually believe somebody just walked through it…

I felt strong energy surges and the energy was really intense last night. The whole meditation through I would feel the electrical buzzing surges and rushes along my back and spine and a lot of the rushes of electricity were coming from the base of my neck, right above the shoulder blades. While I had my eyes closed I sometimes saw white light streaks that suddenly came out of nowhere, once it actually felt as if it hit my upper right eyelashes when it came close. It was a weird feeling as if my eyelashes suddenly moved for a second. Or as if something fell down and touched the upper lashes.

the more I focused on the right hand the more I became aware of the intense buzzing and pulling in my third eye and I also felt a strong sensation of a weird inner rush and a hovering feeling from inside, yet I was not able to lift my Astral arms or anything like that. i tried to visualize a tunnel with streaks of white light that would fly past me, like a high speed movement through a tunnel. I felt energy rushes. I tried to visualize me sitting in a roller coaster going up and then tried to feel the free fall, but nothing of these would push me out of body… I was hoping because of the free fall sensation that my astral body would jump out of the physical body. But it did not work. Now it could be that I was just not ready yet and again used the wrong timing.

At some point I was so deep into this meditation that I must have fallen asleep, I really don’t remember, but I do remember that my body just suddenly jerked and catapulted itself to the right side and all I could think about was “Oh great… now it’s over I will not go back to back laying position and try all over...” So I stopped and fell asleep. Again without remembering any dreams whatsoever…

In the morning I was woken at 10 AM by my husband, my cellphone must have died in the night and the alarm did not ring at 8:30 AM… ouch. As I got out of bed I had a very weird sensation in my left leg, actually I had no feeling in my left leg whatsoever. It was suddenly feeling like it was not there, like I was walking on a rubber leg, it was like liquid rubber, every time I would step on my left foot, my leg would bend to the outside… This continued for a few minutes and then suddenly went back to normal… wow what a weird experience… It actually felt as if my leg was not there in these moments… Maybe my leg was still someplace else???

Nightly meditation experience (trying for OBE)

I had some very interesting conversations last evening. With Vashta Narada and with a new friend on Facebook. Both of these conversations included ETs and channels and how it actually feels when they make contact (Thank you Vashta). She herself is in connection with a couple of ET beings and she described her feelings of a few of them and how it felt. Then I listened to her interview with channel Rob Gauthier who channels an ET called Plagnor from the Andaar race. And Plagnor said in the interview to a question of how he or they make themselves known when they try to connect, and he said that they use clicking sounds like hand claps (CLICK, CLICK…. CLICK, CLICK) It’s interesting because I hear these clicking sounds many times! sometimes in threes coming from the left ear and sometimes many times which comes from the right ear!

I used an Astral Projection Binaural Beat and it helped me a lot to relax. the track was about an hour long and shifted frequencies in between the different stages. Throughout the track I felt many different energetic sensations, from intense pulling in the Solar Plexus, to sudden dense energy balls traveling from the ovaries area into my right side or left side below the rib cage! I also felt strong energetic sensations around my head and close to the end of the track I felt energy pooling above my hands, I had them palm side up.

As the track ended I tried to visualize my hands to lift up as soon as I felt the energy feeling. But nothing happened. In the matter of fact there was a sudden loud crack inside my room and in the same moment I had an electric jolt throughout my brain with a white light flash, which startled me. I then realized that it became suddenly very windy outside and I heard my door being opened and it scared me a little bit. So I pulled myself out and closed the window in my room so the wind would not move the door with weird noises…After that it was over, I needed to use the bathroom and I did not feel like repeating that whole session again… So once again a night without success 😦

This morning my husband told me that he had a weird dream. He dreamed there was a huge tsunami in our area and it destroyed everything, the house and the surroundings and he saw a woman screaming on the streets. Then out of a sudden he said in the dream he said to himself, that cannot be real, I must be dreaming. I wanted to tell him that at this moment he could have gone anyplace he wanted to, as this means he became lucid! But I didn’t because he does not believe in astral projection and makes jokes about it. He said he waited to wake up… And then I thought to myself. he does not even try and becomes aware that he is dreaming. I try since ages to become lucid and believe me my dreams are extremely weird so it does not make any sense that my mind does not get it that I am in fact dreaming… 😦

In the matter of fact I oddly enough had no dreams at all tonight, I just suddenly woke up because of the alarm at 8:30 AM…