Intense energies and clearing dream

Last night I can honestly say the energies ramped up a notch or better saying a LOT! I felt it already bubbling up inside of my body while I was watching another movie. But it got even more intense as I was lying on my back for sleep. As usual I started my nightly “adventure” with a meditation and just feeling in order to sense new sensations. And I was not disappointed as it became very clear after just a few seconds of lying down that my energy body was being worked on almost immediately after lying down!

I felt strong surges of energy from both of my hip bones, it almost feels like a tiny electric discharge was taking place around the hip joints. I suppose these joints are buffers for extreme amounts of energy so whatever is too much gets discharged from the body and can be felt as sparkling, almost like goosebumps.

After these sensations I felt strong vibrations almost like a cellphone was vibrating in the entire area of my stomach! It was literally feeling as if thousand of tiny little vibrating particles were jumping around in my stomach! And I knew it was a Solar Plexus chakra clearing! After that I felt strong sensations in my chest and I tried to the best of my ability to stay in the heart instead of going up again into the mind and ask questions. I just wanted to observe and feel! However as I drifted closed off to sleep I suddenly got aware again because I felt sudden stings, almost like insect bites in my genital area… It was so weird, can you imagine you are lying in meditation and want to relax as suddenly something feels like it bites you in the most sensitive area of your body? LOL

Anyway after that I just rolled to the side and tried to sleep, which interestingly enough worked quite fast actually!

DREAM: kidnapping, sexual ritual, follow the squirrel into a black hole!

The dream was more than surreal, however it felt very REAL! This is the worst thing about these dreams, they are so unreal but they definitely feel real… OMG this sounds so strange. The dream began actually while I was in some kind of facility or some kind of weird building. I did not see the outside, but I know that there were many people chained up to chairs, that looked like recliners! Just in black leather. I was sitting on the very left outside chair, while on my right there were more women chained up to the chairs. I however was not chained! Still I was sitting there!

The dream shifted many times to a disturbing scene! I am not sure how this happened, but it always shifted to a dark area where a woman was chained to the ground and a man,huge, intense muscles, brown long hair, almost barbaric in looks, kneed over her and raped her! It’s not only that he raped her, I was forced to watch up close how his gigantic ehm… willy entered her… I was disturbed and did not know what was going on, however apparently I was not allowed to wake up from this. This exact scene repeated itself a few times.

Then the dream shifted again and I was sitting once again on the chair, as I hear someone say that the women there are going through a ritual, they are having sexual intercourse to bear the babies for someone. I am not sure who it was though. As I heard this I suddenly got panic flooding my being and I knew I needed to get out of there. It was then that a weird machine who stood on some kind of metallic tripod and had a laser eye turned around and wanted to shoot a laser beam on my wrists, I suppose it was the device that chained the women to the chairs. I countered the attack and grabbed the long, thin neck of this machine and trashed it with my feet and I ran away…

The dream suddenly shifts and I am walking with my husband I suppose? Even though I never saw him, it could have been someone else? As I saw a squirrel run away and into a big black hole. I followed it and the other person followed me. As we reached the black hole I saw that the animal covered it was dirt and a weird golden stone! So I removed the dirt and the stone and could look deep down the “rabbit hole???” I guess the squirrel is my version of ALICE IN WONDERLAND’S bunny!  HA HA HA Did you read that Karin??? The squirrel seems to be for me what is for your the bunny! So we jumped down the hole and found ourselves in a dark underground kind of setting. The man was walking in front of me refusing to turn on the light, as we walked through this area. I was almost running as I got overwhelmed by the darkness down there…

As we reached the end of it I suddenly entered a weird looking house. I moved through the rooms and as I reached the balcony I suddenly realize that it was the same setting as in the beginning but this time nobody as there anymore and it all looked lost and lonely! That moment as I looked over the lawn I must have been woken by my husband getting up in the morning.

Funny though I remember a very vivid flying dream from my childhood! I was flying and visiting a man with blonde hair and blue eyes on a house with a huge balcony in the middle of the night! We were in love apparently and kissing each other. This was one of my first remembered childhood dreams that involved flying in order to reach a place that I could never have entered before. I don’t know how it is connected to my dream just now, but that the memory just came back is definitely worth mentioning!


Dream: water, toilets, group meeting

As if my dreams cannot be any weirder… But this just happened last night. I fell asleep from within my meditation I suppose as I was aware of a very weird dream going on! The theme of the last 3 dreams seems to be element related. 1. FIRE, 2 WATER.

DREAM: water, toilets, group meeting

The dream started ordinary in a place that was actually beautiful, green lawn everywhere, kind of like a park or something like that. I remember I came from someplace and tried to get through this park, I suppose I wanted to go someplace. But I was stuck in place as I approached a weird space. There was a huge rectangular swimming pool in the ground. There were tons of people all around and I remember that there was a man going around checking around the pool. But what is weird about this was that around the swimmingpool there were at least 10 toilet seats placed into the ground directly around the pool. Which was so strange to see… There were actually girls sitting on these toilet seats, bottoms uncovered…

I remember trying to find an indoor bathroom and I went from one place to the next and could not find anything at all. All I got was weird looks as if I was not knowing what the rules were for this place. I have no idea why everybody looked at my like I was a ghost or something else…

As I went outside again I actually got close to this pool and the toilet seats… I checked it out further and recognized that the girls who were sitting on these seats where doing some kind of “ritual” the man who was circling around the pool had a bottle with some weird orange liquid, kind of like a liquid soap. He poured this substance on the abdomen of the females and they needed to wash their female parts with this. It got even weirder. As I suddenly decided without much of a choice kind of. I sat down on one of these seats and the man dripped the substance on my abdomen and I used my hands to wash myself down there… I saw how the substance built a lot of foam.

After this scene I got up and wanted to get away from this place. I tried to run over the lawn towards the entrance as I suddenly was stopped by a young girl, she had blonde hair and asked me a question about the place, she was obviously searching for something. I told her something, but I forgot what exactly I said. as I continued another young girl with long brown hair and eyes came towards me and asked me about something she was looking for. She asked me if I knew where I can find a “Smart Pocket“. I asked her “Smart Pocket???” I then told her that I am not actually working here and I just wanted to leave.

But then it became funny, I was back around the pool and I suddenly saw Dayna and Karin. Two friends of mine from Facebook! Dayna came towards me and we hugged each other. Karin came as well and looked at us, as Dayna suddenly said “I really hope my husband does not sell all my stuff on “BlueBay” while I am here.” I looked at her and asked “BlueBay?” It’s weird because it could have been Ebay but she really said BlueBay! I did not know what to say, so I told her “No I do not think he would do that!” For whatever reason I suddenly turned around and walked away, as I observed that Karin who was standing in front of Dayna looked at me while I disappeared. That’s when I actually awoke this morning.

I just tried to find out what BlueBay means! and it is two different things.
1. BlueBay Asset Management
2. BlueBay Spa and Resort

But there are actually many more resorts with that name, However I never saw that name before!

Another weird dream

Tonight I finally had a dream again that I can remember even the next morning! My husband got hit in the meantime with yet another cold, but this time it seems to be Virus related… That means he is already sick for a month now… The dream was nice at first and then turned to a nightmare!

DREAM: Musical, Ride, Threat for death

The beginning of the dream was like an overlook at something. I saw my husband’s music in a musical setting. He composed one of the many Phantom of the Opera movies and I suddenly saw a stage for a big musical and all the stage decor etc. It was just magical!

As the dream shifted I was on my way back someplace and I saw this black car. Which I jumped into. It was most likely  a Lyft ride, but I was the passenger! As I got into the car the inside suddenly morphed and it became a square room. Like literally it did not look like the inside of a car anymore! There was a square table and a man sat on the left in front of me and a woman on the right! As I looked at everything I realized that there were suddenly steering-wheels coming out of the table. The woman took the wheel and started driving. The dream felt very real to me. I looked out of the window while driving and my gaze suddenly fell on the curb, there was a big crow screaming at 2 grey cats (lol grey??? hmmm) As I looked closer I saw that the crow was protecting a couple of baby crows! And I said out loud “Oh my goodness baby crows!

Suddenly the dream shifted and we arrive at my car, as we got out of theirs the car outside just looked like a normal black car again. They came out and looked at my windshield and saw the Lyft trade dress. They asked me questions and there was mysteriously some kind of cellphone lying on my dashboard on the right side beneath the lyft logo. Also some kind of note with weird letters and numbers and they asked me about these… But I have no idea how it continued from here, as the dream suddenly shifted.

I suddenly saw a man, he had short hair, looked really, really mad and insane! He had a fire-thrower and was trying to burn someone or something. I got scared but at the same moment I wanted to help the person/thing that he tried to burn, as the thrower suddenly started acting up and no flames came out anymore I ran towards him and tried to knock him down. Sadly that did not work very well for me and he looked at me and tried to grab me. In that moment I caught an hose and pointed it at him, some fluid came out and into his eyes. But he didn’t care and tried to grab hold on me. I felt scared and panicked. As he knocked me down and tried to strangle me I was screaming in my dream. Until to the last moment when my husband suddenly appeared and knocked him over. I don’t remember anything from here on. I have no idea what happened, if I woke up or something else… But this was a terrifying experience…

Energy is back!

After a strong emotional pain hit me out of nowhere I suddenly also experienced again the strong energy surges! I feel a lot of activity and movement inside my chest, especially in the evening while sitting relaxed and watching a movie! I can feel it through the front but also on the backside of my body. All in the height of the Heart center! On the back it sometimes feels as if density is pressing against the chair lean!

I also try to still my mind through meditation and I somehow managed last night to get some glimpses of what I experienced in the past when all of these energetic experiences started happening. I was lying on my back and just starring into nothingness. My visual screen was dark. However after some minutes of resting and relaxing I started seeing tiny little light flashes in the darkness. Like a distant camera was flashing on and off.

Then out of a sudden as I did not question anything that would happen or actually happened I saw a light flash which brought a visual with it. I saw for the blink of a second a man’s head. He had short blonde hair, blue eyes and his head appeared to be covered in blood! This visual came on suddenly as it always did in the past, when I first had my Kundalini Awakening. It startled me a tiny bit, or enough to create a heart jump, when it appeared. Sometime after this I fell asleep and I actually had a dream that somehow was connected to this visual!

DREAM: Swimming, two men, blood!

In the dream I was myself and I went to some kind of an indoor swimming pool. It looked beautiful and kind of like the pools in Germany! As I walked towards the edge and downstairs into the water a man passed me. He was taller than me, had short blonde hair and blue eyes. His face is burned into my mind I can still see him in front of me! He looked at me while passing with a very charming gaze! Like he was literally starring right into my soul. As I passed him and went deeper into the water I encountered another man who looked very similar to the first one! However I figured out at some point that they were both brothers! The second one was a little bit younger than the first. And it then happened that I felt embarrassed because of the looks these both men were giving me. I tried to hide from them. But in the end I was sitting at the back side of the pool having my feet inside the water, as the younger brother suddenly appeared and sat beside me. He talked to me, sadly the conversation is lost. However I remotely remember that he tried to make me feel happiness. He tried to convince me that his brother would like to see me. So somehow I must have agreed to this whole thing as both of them were irresistibly charming and beautiful at the same time!

The dream shifted and I entered a house, a beautiful home decorated with picture frames and flowers (red roses). As I entered the house I was lead to the entrance area and needed to wait for the older brother to arrive.

The dream shifted yet again and I see myself sitting on the floor having the same blood covering my face as I saw in the tiny 1 second vision before. Just that it was not me, but a man with short blonde hair, blue eyes! Which could have been one of the men of my dream! However why was I the one with the bloody face and why was I actually looking at myself??? How can I look at myself when I am the one who is obviously bleeding? It was like I saw myself from a different viewpoint.

Cycle of life and confrontation

Last night I had some very real but strange dreams. I tried to meditate before and just tuning into the subtle whistle I hear within me or around me, I am actually not sure anymore where that sound comes from. It always shifts pitch and frequency and sometimes I can hear very subtle bell tones.

Cycle of Life

As I fell asleep the first time I went through a dream that was more surreal than real, but on the other hand felt definitely very realistic. I was in an organization and went through corridors as there was a gathering of people, many of the staff members looked at me and I almost felt paranoid as why they would follow me so intensely with their eyes. As I approached the backside of the building and opened a door that lead to a cliff or some kind of pond setting with a waterfall going down. As I looked down I saw tiny fish inside the pond that directly connected to the door. You could not go outside. I remember looking at the fish in so many colors, shapes and forms.

As I returned inside I went back to the main entrance and went outside of the building, as someone suddenly said “The Organization will finally shoot a movie and integrate a lot of the spiritual teachings into it.” It was then that I suddenly was shown part of the movie. It was a blonde girl who lived the whole time in the water, as the train went out of the water and she emerged into the air for the first time she became curious and started floating. The scene was surreal, mountains, hills, suns, water, green so much color. Like in a fantasy land. She was floating over the water and played with the birds that swarmed around her. As she approached the top of the hill she could overlook the whole landscape and then suddenly the one cabin train went down on the other side and approached the water, as she worried, got anxieties and emerged back into the water.

I suddenly realized that this whole scene presented the Cycle of life, always repeating, you emerge, play a little bit and then you go back where you came from.

As this scene ended I was walking along the street as suddenly a red cabriolet drove by with man driving who had long brown hair in a knot and a beard. He was singing a song in a different language. I had the words he used in my head but sadly forgot them. I think it sounded somewhat like: “Le mu a mir may” Something like that.

I suddenly was woken by a loud noise outside… A helicopter, very loud was circling around our house. I did not see anything while opening the blinds, but it was terribly loud… As it finally went away I turned around and fell asleep again. It was around 5-6 AM. As I rushed into the next very real dream.


In this dream I somehow returned back to Germany and joined my mother, my grandfather who I did not see in years and many other family members at a table for dinner. But somehow my mother started attacking me and I don’t know why I was so angry, but the whole dream was about our confrontation and I said the word “whore” a lot of times… Which is so untypical for me… I would never say that. My mother snapped and told me I will need to find a job the next day… But I screamed back at her “No I am not working here, I am living in L.A. and I am working there, you cannot hold me here!

Very weird dreams lately. And many of them have to do with anger release and my mother…

Dream: Huge fight and anger

Last night I slept alone to let my husband rest some more. He has a cold and I do not want to get it as well, especially not when he goes to Pittsburgh next Monday for 12 days. So I listened to a Binaural Beat for Astral Projection that was 1 hour long. But nothing happened, however I heard the clicking noise on my left ear, even though I had earphones in! After 1 hour I must have fallen asleep as I suddenly jerk up with a deep gasp of air. As I realized the binaural beat stopped… I tried again without any earphones just in silence to get something, anything out of it. But nothing happened.

At some point I fell asleep again and then I had a terrible dream that once again involved my mother and a third person who was a man who was visiting her or something.

In the dream we suddenly started talking about the changes of the earth and how many people are leaving right now. The third person was totally in to it and agreed with what was being said and I too was excited that someone finally understood all of this. Everything was being said and I explained to both of them what I experience and regardless of what was being said, my mother suddenly looked at me and told me in my face “Maybe you should go to a doctor and let him check it out” I don’t know why but I got so angry at her for saying this after all we have just talked about. It was like it went over her head and she just said what she wanted to say to begin with…

The dream brought out anger so strong that I actually felt during the dream the madness and anger that I felt during this scene. I think it was a clearing of the anger emotion, because it was so clear to me that I felt anger during that scene. We were literally screaming at each other, while the man just sat there in between us and did not say a word…

Dream: my father, death and despair

Oh man… It was such an amazing evening with my husbands performance and the beautiful concert. However we had a guest over for 3 days and he stood at our home and I felt so burned out after all that was finished. I was driving people up and down the hill as the parking was not optimal at this location… Later our guest suggested that we go out again around 10 PM for a movie, but I could not do it. I was just too tired and burned out. My husband is complaining for 3 days now about this constant pressure and puffiness pain in his right side, below the rib cage… I just needed rest.

So meditation wasn’t going to happen, however I tried as long as I could to tune into the subtle ringing sound that I especially can hear in total silence. I heard the tone and I also observed that the frequency changed almost all the time, it is never the same tone! Sometimes like bells, sometimes a tapping water drip tone and many times morse clicking codes come through! Then I fell asleep and had a terrible nightmare that believe it or not continued through the whole night, or at least it felt that way…

Dream: my father, death and despair

In the dream it was mainly about my father who died 2013 with age 51… Nobody knows really what he died from. However he suddenly from one day to the next started hearing voices and hid from creatures or phantoms that we could not see… My mother was afraid of this and send him to the psychs… After that they got divorced and my father moved into his own apartment 6 weeks later… However I was living in the USA already of course. When I got the call from my mother someday that my father was found lying dead in his bathroom.. . 😦

The dream showed me the bad things that were going on with my father and then on top of that my mother died in the dream. The whole dream went around that scenario I don’t know but I felt like I cried for real during the most scenes. Then the dream shifted again and I saw my grandfather who started writing something and my mother in form of spirit moved his fingers to write a letter, but he did not let his fingers lose and used control so she pushed him to loosen his fingers and hands. The dream shifted again and somebody placed a hand on top of my mothers solar plexus chakra and said “she is not what you think she is, she is a demon, do not engage with her

I don’t remember much of the dream, but it literally felt like it went on and on and on… Made me feel terrible this morning.