A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part II: Tanja’s Awakening

Hello everyone, I am a little late with my blog post. I am sorry about the little delay. I started a new adventure with a driving service and I am out most of the day. However I did not forget about Barbara’s challenge, A Selection of True Awakening Experiences ~ Part II.

I am very grateful for the opportunity to share my experiences of the Awakening with other people who go through it in one way or another!

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My Awakening story:

Everybody who has experienced any kind of spiritual awakening or wake up-call knows that we go through a lot in life to get where we are at right now in this specific moment! I too have a story how it came to my Awakening and all the experiences I’ve had since it happened in August 2014!

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But let’s go to the beginning of time! When I was a young girl, I always knew back then that something about me was different. I could never put my finger on it, but I just knew something was there the whole time. I called it later my guardian angel. As a young girl I started my life with some heavy problems. My father was since I can remember an alcoholic, my mother was/is very intense and clinging since I am her only child. She also got quickly angry at me for the slightest problems or mistakes!

In Kindergarten I started out with making one arch enemy of a boy who was placed with me in the same class! He started bullying me and saying mean things that hurt me very deeply. As I always felt I should never be mean towards other people, I tried to help others, gave them my kindergarten equipment and yet there was always this one boy who hurt me and not only emotionally. Another boy who was his (Norman’s) friend started bullying me as well and it went so far that he pushed me against a drawing stand. That was the first time I received a mark on my forehead, one that I should carry my whole life! I was bleeding from the top right corner of my eyebrow and it was the first time my guardian angel protected me from more to happen!

It was also throughout Kindergarten time that I somehow just suddenly found out that certain parts of my body created enormous amounts of pleasure. And it was just Kindergarten! How can a tiny little girl possibly feel these adulthood pleasures? Was that even possible? Apparently it was. It became almost and obsession to create that feeling and someday my mother caught me, of course she knew what that was that I was doing, and so she got mad at me for something I should not play with yet. I have no memory whatsoever how I found out about it with such a young age!

My life continued throughout all schools like this, and mysteriously the same boy who was hurting me so much was always, without a mistake, placed in the same classes and schools. As if the universe made sure that I experience these things that I cried about for evening after evening. As a child I was terribly afraid of death and at the same time wished for it, but it never happened. No accident I ever had created problems. I was always mysteriously protected! Of course I kept on getting scars that stayed with me forever. Norman was the second reason for the second mark left on my forehead. He pushed me against a shelf and I hit my head on the left temple! Again it could have ended worse!

I was at fault for the third mark on my forehead which is on the exact center, but higher than the Third eye!

However throughout my childhood I had experiences of spiritual nature. I would have extremely realistic dreams of being able to fly, doing Telekinesis etc. All these things that many of us know to be spiritual abilities! All of these dreams where extremely real and I always felt the next morning as if I really could fly!
One evening, I remember waking up in a shock as I felt that my whole body fell on the mattress of my bed. In fact I felt that my body hit the bed! As if I fell from the sky and inside my bed! That jerked me up for good!

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There is a period of my life which I do not remember anything about! The only thing I remember is, that I was suddenly afraid of something in my closet! My mother once told me that I came downstairs crying for my father, to come upstairs and check my closet. I asked my mother what I was afraid of and she said “You said you saw a monster!” How come I can never remember what I actually was afraid of? It’s like erased from my mind!

Then there came the first time of spiritual darkness and I believe it to be my first dark night of the soul! I saw on TV a picture of a deformed two headed calf and after that nothing was the same anymore! Night for night after lying in bed and closing my eyes, I felt something tormenting my chest, I felt as if I could not breath anymore and I developed a weird swallowing problem, sometimes I could not swallow at all! Which created more panic! This continued daily, every night I was afraid of going to bed as it would happen without mistake! In these moments I needed to walk through the room and open the windows as I was sure I could not breath! Till today I am not really sure what this was that I experienced!

Then someday it just stopped! It never happened again! Back and forth I was interested in studying everything about Telekinesis and for the first time I got interested in the Out of Body phenomenon. I had finally internet and was about 15 years old. I tried to do what I read online but I never was successful. What I also should mention is that I had tons of Déjà Vu experiences in my childhood! There were many moments when I felt I could just finish a sentence someone was about to say, inside my head! Just my mouth was not fast enough!

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Then there was this magical moment in my life when I lost the golden earring from my mother which she gave me as a present from her great grandmother. It happened while riding my bicycle through a forest. My ear got stuck on a branch and the earring got pulled out. there  was just no way of finding it between literally millions of yellow, orange and red leafs! So my two friends and I were looking all over the place and gave up. We rode back home and as expected my mother got mad at me and screamed I NEED TO GET THAT EARRING BACK! No way, so we rode back to that forest and it was just coincidence that we found the same spot again. I was near breakdown and my only hope was a white plastic bag which was lying on the floor. I took it, looked at it and said with intend “I can do whatever I want!” And I threw it into the air. All three of us were looking into the air and followed the white bag! As it landed on the ground I carefully approached it and picked it up. It was then that my believe in god or angels was strengthened. The earring, which was impossible to find was lying directly underneath one of the 4 edges of this plastic bag! WOW! Manifestation at it’s best!

As the years kept on going I was embarrassed to like myself, as I did not develop as fast as other girls did! When they started showing breast I still was flat like a wooden board. Which made it impossible for me to stand in front of other girls underneath the showers and I usually skipped or went under when they were already gone. On top of that I had Norman and other boys who were bullying me for the way I looked. Thin, tall, no breast, very thin face. but a head full of extreme thick locks! While all other girls had straight hair!

This all combines the march towards the Awakening. When I was 27 years old I met my now husband online. He happened to be a movie composer and I was watching coincidentally one of his movies and I fell in love with his music. At that time I took piano lessons in Germany and I needed to have the music to study it. So I wrote him an e-mail and somehow against all odds we connected! And this created months later our marriage! And my dream of living in the USA got fulfilled as well!

However this could be a happy ending to all the torment right? well guess what, it wasn’t that was only the beginning… Very quickly I realized that my husband has a shadow aspect to him which brings in tremendous arguments, fights and problems out of thin air. He gets mad at me for no apparent reason and then starts fights which always end in his advantage, as he is an amazing communicator and a lot older than me! He definitely knows how to attack with single words! Life here has been a blessing in disguise!

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In the meantime my father snapped and from one day to the next he suddenly started hearing voices and talked to beings my mother could not see. They told him my mother was hiding mics in the house! My mother told me that he was once standing outside at the house door talking to a person that only he could see! My mother got afraid and called the police, who took him to the psychiatrists… Very big mistake… He got drugged and in the meantime my mother divorced from him… After 6 weeks he got released and needed to move into his own apartment. I could kick my ass for the last sentence I said to my father when he called me from Germany one day… He was obviously drunk and throughout his talking he stopped all the time and it became quiet! I asked him what he is doing. and his answer was that he gt telepathically messages from my mother, she still is thinking about him… I had enough of this and not knowing anything, I told him “Are you hearing voices again?” and I hang up…
A couple of weeks later I sent him a letter to Germany asking how he is feeling etc. But never received answer… No idea if he still read the letter! Then in July 2012 I got the message from my mother that my father was found dead lying in his bathroom… I was shocked but at the same moment could not cry, it was like my tears were blocked to come out! It was just too unreal to me that my father with just 51 was dead!

It took all this time till beginning of August 2014, when I finally realized what happened and that I will never see him again nor say anything else to him… I broke a part and one evening I started crying, crying about everything. Letting everything out which was bombarding me emotionally my whole life. It was a release to say the least!  I cried until no more tear could flow without painful eyes… In this emotional release I asked god begging what happened to my father! Give me a sign!

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And guess what the prayer was heard and 2 weeks later I experienced the first Ascension related symptoms! Sudden hot sweat, but at the same time freezing from the outside. Then 2 nights in a row  I experienced sudden full body vibrations! They started at the forehead and continued over the whole body. I kept quiet and did not suspect anything wrong! I then started getting red rashes around my spine, on the height of the lower chakras. Sudden itch at the lower spine! and then one afternoon, the sun was shining through the window of our living room and I suddenly felt the urge to just let go, lying down on the floor, head towards the balcony, and closing my eyes, just breathing.

It was then that I suddenly got hit with an intense bright light flash in the center of my head, which I perceived as behind closed eyes! At the same time I felt intense arousing feelings in my root chakra and it was so intense that it was really close! And then one day later as I was sitting working at computer I suddenly felt a strong density and tension pulsing in my tailbone and the first rising of the Kundalini happened! I felt dense energy going upwards on my back, pushing and pressing against my ribs and shoulder blades!

From that day on everything changed! I started seeing visions of mandalas, purple light inside my head, buzzing and humming vibrations all over my body. I saw crystal clear faces of persons and ET beings projected in front of my third eye! And also the famous high pitched frequency sound started appearing for me and since then becomes clearer and clearer every single time I go through major energy shifts!

The Kundalini energy rose 4-5 times and every single time the constant inner buzzing stays longer on without turning off. I suppose once my body is prepared enough to house this much light it won’t ever turn off again!

This is my current status into the Awakening process and I am looking forward to many more experiences and potentials which always come up after a major energy influx!

Update of incoming energies!

Hello everyone,

it has been some time since my last blog post! But I have an update about the incoming energies! I will write it in a list style so you can see what I am currently experiencing!

  • Extremely strong bubble, tingle, sparkling sensation inside my chest! I describe it as something feels as if it is born inside my chest! Possible first time heart chakra opening?
  • I also feel intense energies around my head, sometimes when these streams of energy come in through the crown I feel a shift inside my head, as if something just moved a tiny notch!
  • Sometimes strong vertigo feeling
  • Tingles and electric discharge feelings all over my body. Very strong in the chest, legs and both hip joints. You sit one moment in a chair watching a movie and in the next it feels like electricity is pouring all over an area of your body! Very weird sensation
  • Some head stabbing sensations especially around the left temple and left upper side of my head.
  • Sometimes very loud high pitched frequencies most pronounced in left ear!
  • Being more and more prepared for multi dimensional aspects. Ergo a couple of days ago I had my very first not threatening Out of Body experience, which was really as if I would have walked through my house in Germany, just not the correct timeline or something as things looked different!
  • Becoming more and more aware of a shift of consciousness. Falling asleep but staying on the edge produces the weirdest sensations and sounds! I heard extremely loud paper cracking sounds the night before my OOBE in the morning! This happened now already twice!
  • number syncs and other visual syncs that connect to what was said a couple of seconds or minutes ago!
  • A strong shift in perceptions. It almost seems like the parallel universes become intertwined! I don’t know how to explain it but when you look in the space in front of you with a soft gaze you will see light woven patterns that seem to move. Very beautiful spectacle and mostly in the color purple for me!

The strongest sensation however is the heart center sensation! I never had such strong energy surges on my heart center! And it really can bliss you out, if it becomes any stronger! Last night I felt this tickling electricity going up my back on the height of the heart chakra! In the same moment my heart chakra was pulling and pushing and buzzing and tingling. It was so strong!

Energy reaches kind of a high point!

Last night was intense to say the least! it was so intense… And on top of that my husband still continued to drag around that stupid fight about one silly sentence of mine… He does not understand that the only reason why he was upset about it is that he has some issues to resolve for himself. There is no way on earth that someone starts a huge fight just 3 days after telling you that they fell in love with you “again” that suddenly this “love” breaks a part because of ONE nonsense sentence which I did not even mean as bad or anything like that. It was more in a joking way. So as the energy reached a high point towards the evening I felt strong energy pushes and surges along my back that directly shot up to the heart center. There was a moment last evening as I watched a movie that I actually thought this is HUGE! I mean I never felt it so crystal clear before. But my whole lower back was filled with dense mega charged energy, that felt like electric wires left and right were discharging electromagnetism! It’s no wonder as I talked for a long time over messages on Facebook with another individual (Jason) who goes through similar experiences with his Kundalini! No wonder that my energy got enormous after these conversations!

As the night approached my husband told me he needs to be alone for this night, so I slept alone. I took the chance to again try to meditate and see where it goes without forcing anything! There was a sudden moment I have no idea what actually happened in this moment! It was too weird to comprehend! I don’t know if I fell asleep for a second or something else was taking place, but as my mouth again fell open widely while in total relaxation I suddenly heard a very loud and weird noise that I this time observed for a brief moment and I felt it came right from the center of my head! It was not even in my ears! It was like a very loud cracking of paper or something else, it’s too difficult for me to explain what I heard. But the moment I did hear it my whole awareness got intense again and the sound just like that disappeared. I thought “What the hell???!”

As I then tried to repeat this by closely falling asleep it did not happen again. This is the thing these experiences just happen, you have no control over them whatsoever! It did not happen again! But I fell asleep.

In the morning at 9 AM my husband came to my room and asked me to join him again. As I went to the bathroom and joined him in the bed he was already asleep again I suppose. That was quick lol… I also fell asleep very fast, but something happened and I am baffled by it and still try to figure out if it was an OOBE! I suddenly got aware of a visual I was standing upstairs in our old home in Germany! And I went downstairs during the walk downstairs I saw that my vision suddenly become crystal clear, I could see the walls, as I remembered them. I saw the dogs downstairs. And in this moment I was so happy I could feel it, seeing the dogs of my mother! Suddenly the visual blurred a bit and out of instinct I rubbed my hands together as I read a few times already that this helps and indeed the visual came back. I continued downstairs. Then as I turned left into the kitchen, I got aware of a red glowing number on the microwave which was not on the right spot! It was standing right in front of me on the counter, while I know it was always on the left! I do not remember the number though… The dogs were playing and I actually kneed down to look at my old dog Luna, she was happy to see me. I wondered was that really possible that they could see me??? I only had visual through my eyes which is uncommon, I always see myself from another perspective in my dreams. and yet I seem to have had control over the experience! As I decided before that to rub my hands!

I continued through the kitchen and moved towards the living room. I saw my mother and my father sitting on the couch on the right side of the room. I know for sure the couch and sofa are now on the left side! But something else was weird. My mother appeared with no hair just kind of little blonde but it looked almost as if she was bold. I was kind of surprised… I wanted them to see me but they did not see me… So I moved ahead and grabbed a paper napkin from the floor and put it into the garbage bin. But they did not see it… The next step was to push something in front of my mother on the table. As I did this I felt the object on my pointer finger as if I really touched it. In this moment the visual distorted and I could not retain it anymore. As I got aware of the red hue in front of me and the light show spreading out I suddenly felt a very weird sensation. It felt like I got seriously electric zapped inside my left and right ear. But more inside the left one! As I tried to get another visual while I was aware I got zapped again and soon afterwards it was time to wake up anyway. If this was my first OOBE I am actually quite amazed, because it seemed that I had control, over pushing things, playing with my dog abs rubbing my hands

Intense energies and clearing dream

Last night I can honestly say the energies ramped up a notch or better saying a LOT! I felt it already bubbling up inside of my body while I was watching another movie. But it got even more intense as I was lying on my back for sleep. As usual I started my nightly “adventure” with a meditation and just feeling in order to sense new sensations. And I was not disappointed as it became very clear after just a few seconds of lying down that my energy body was being worked on almost immediately after lying down!

I felt strong surges of energy from both of my hip bones, it almost feels like a tiny electric discharge was taking place around the hip joints. I suppose these joints are buffers for extreme amounts of energy so whatever is too much gets discharged from the body and can be felt as sparkling, almost like goosebumps.

After these sensations I felt strong vibrations almost like a cellphone was vibrating in the entire area of my stomach! It was literally feeling as if thousand of tiny little vibrating particles were jumping around in my stomach! And I knew it was a Solar Plexus chakra clearing! After that I felt strong sensations in my chest and I tried to the best of my ability to stay in the heart instead of going up again into the mind and ask questions. I just wanted to observe and feel! However as I drifted closed off to sleep I suddenly got aware again because I felt sudden stings, almost like insect bites in my genital area… It was so weird, can you imagine you are lying in meditation and want to relax as suddenly something feels like it bites you in the most sensitive area of your body? LOL

Anyway after that I just rolled to the side and tried to sleep, which interestingly enough worked quite fast actually!

DREAM: kidnapping, sexual ritual, follow the squirrel into a black hole!

The dream was more than surreal, however it felt very REAL! This is the worst thing about these dreams, they are so unreal but they definitely feel real… OMG this sounds so strange. The dream began actually while I was in some kind of facility or some kind of weird building. I did not see the outside, but I know that there were many people chained up to chairs, that looked like recliners! Just in black leather. I was sitting on the very left outside chair, while on my right there were more women chained up to the chairs. I however was not chained! Still I was sitting there!

The dream shifted many times to a disturbing scene! I am not sure how this happened, but it always shifted to a dark area where a woman was chained to the ground and a man,huge, intense muscles, brown long hair, almost barbaric in looks, kneed over her and raped her! It’s not only that he raped her, I was forced to watch up close how his gigantic ehm… willy entered her… I was disturbed and did not know what was going on, however apparently I was not allowed to wake up from this. This exact scene repeated itself a few times.

Then the dream shifted again and I was sitting once again on the chair, as I hear someone say that the women there are going through a ritual, they are having sexual intercourse to bear the babies for someone. I am not sure who it was though. As I heard this I suddenly got panic flooding my being and I knew I needed to get out of there. It was then that a weird machine who stood on some kind of metallic tripod and had a laser eye turned around and wanted to shoot a laser beam on my wrists, I suppose it was the device that chained the women to the chairs. I countered the attack and grabbed the long, thin neck of this machine and trashed it with my feet and I ran away…

The dream suddenly shifts and I am walking with my husband I suppose? Even though I never saw him, it could have been someone else? As I saw a squirrel run away and into a big black hole. I followed it and the other person followed me. As we reached the black hole I saw that the animal covered it was dirt and a weird golden stone! So I removed the dirt and the stone and could look deep down the “rabbit hole???” I guess the squirrel is my version of ALICE IN WONDERLAND’S bunny!  HA HA HA Did you read that Karin??? The squirrel seems to be for me what is for your the bunny! So we jumped down the hole and found ourselves in a dark underground kind of setting. The man was walking in front of me refusing to turn on the light, as we walked through this area. I was almost running as I got overwhelmed by the darkness down there…

As we reached the end of it I suddenly entered a weird looking house. I moved through the rooms and as I reached the balcony I suddenly realize that it was the same setting as in the beginning but this time nobody as there anymore and it all looked lost and lonely! That moment as I looked over the lawn I must have been woken by my husband getting up in the morning.

Funny though I remember a very vivid flying dream from my childhood! I was flying and visiting a man with blonde hair and blue eyes on a house with a huge balcony in the middle of the night! We were in love apparently and kissing each other. This was one of my first remembered childhood dreams that involved flying in order to reach a place that I could never have entered before. I don’t know how it is connected to my dream just now, but that the memory just came back is definitely worth mentioning!

Dream: water, toilets, group meeting

As if my dreams cannot be any weirder… But this just happened last night. I fell asleep from within my meditation I suppose as I was aware of a very weird dream going on! The theme of the last 3 dreams seems to be element related. 1. FIRE, 2 WATER.

DREAM: water, toilets, group meeting

The dream started ordinary in a place that was actually beautiful, green lawn everywhere, kind of like a park or something like that. I remember I came from someplace and tried to get through this park, I suppose I wanted to go someplace. But I was stuck in place as I approached a weird space. There was a huge rectangular swimming pool in the ground. There were tons of people all around and I remember that there was a man going around checking around the pool. But what is weird about this was that around the swimmingpool there were at least 10 toilet seats placed into the ground directly around the pool. Which was so strange to see… There were actually girls sitting on these toilet seats, bottoms uncovered…

I remember trying to find an indoor bathroom and I went from one place to the next and could not find anything at all. All I got was weird looks as if I was not knowing what the rules were for this place. I have no idea why everybody looked at my like I was a ghost or something else…

As I went outside again I actually got close to this pool and the toilet seats… I checked it out further and recognized that the girls who were sitting on these seats where doing some kind of “ritual” the man who was circling around the pool had a bottle with some weird orange liquid, kind of like a liquid soap. He poured this substance on the abdomen of the females and they needed to wash their female parts with this. It got even weirder. As I suddenly decided without much of a choice kind of. I sat down on one of these seats and the man dripped the substance on my abdomen and I used my hands to wash myself down there… I saw how the substance built a lot of foam.

After this scene I got up and wanted to get away from this place. I tried to run over the lawn towards the entrance as I suddenly was stopped by a young girl, she had blonde hair and asked me a question about the place, she was obviously searching for something. I told her something, but I forgot what exactly I said. as I continued another young girl with long brown hair and eyes came towards me and asked me about something she was looking for. She asked me if I knew where I can find a “Smart Pocket“. I asked her “Smart Pocket???” I then told her that I am not actually working here and I just wanted to leave.

But then it became funny, I was back around the pool and I suddenly saw Dayna and Karin. Two friends of mine from Facebook! Dayna came towards me and we hugged each other. Karin came as well and looked at us, as Dayna suddenly said “I really hope my husband does not sell all my stuff on “BlueBay” while I am here.” I looked at her and asked “BlueBay?” It’s weird because it could have been Ebay but she really said BlueBay! I did not know what to say, so I told her “No I do not think he would do that!” For whatever reason I suddenly turned around and walked away, as I observed that Karin who was standing in front of Dayna looked at me while I disappeared. That’s when I actually awoke this morning.

I just tried to find out what BlueBay means! and it is two different things.
1. BlueBay Asset Management
2. BlueBay Spa and Resort

But there are actually many more resorts with that name, However I never saw that name before!

Another weird dream

Tonight I finally had a dream again that I can remember even the next morning! My husband got hit in the meantime with yet another cold, but this time it seems to be Virus related… That means he is already sick for a month now… The dream was nice at first and then turned to a nightmare!

DREAM: Musical, Ride, Threat for death

The beginning of the dream was like an overlook at something. I saw my husband’s music in a musical setting. He composed one of the many Phantom of the Opera movies and I suddenly saw a stage for a big musical and all the stage decor etc. It was just magical!

As the dream shifted I was on my way back someplace and I saw this black car. Which I jumped into. It was most likely  a Lyft ride, but I was the passenger! As I got into the car the inside suddenly morphed and it became a square room. Like literally it did not look like the inside of a car anymore! There was a square table and a man sat on the left in front of me and a woman on the right! As I looked at everything I realized that there were suddenly steering-wheels coming out of the table. The woman took the wheel and started driving. The dream felt very real to me. I looked out of the window while driving and my gaze suddenly fell on the curb, there was a big crow screaming at 2 grey cats (lol grey??? hmmm) As I looked closer I saw that the crow was protecting a couple of baby crows! And I said out loud “Oh my goodness baby crows!

Suddenly the dream shifted and we arrive at my car, as we got out of theirs the car outside just looked like a normal black car again. They came out and looked at my windshield and saw the Lyft trade dress. They asked me questions and there was mysteriously some kind of cellphone lying on my dashboard on the right side beneath the lyft logo. Also some kind of note with weird letters and numbers and they asked me about these… But I have no idea how it continued from here, as the dream suddenly shifted.

I suddenly saw a man, he had short hair, looked really, really mad and insane! He had a fire-thrower and was trying to burn someone or something. I got scared but at the same moment I wanted to help the person/thing that he tried to burn, as the thrower suddenly started acting up and no flames came out anymore I ran towards him and tried to knock him down. Sadly that did not work very well for me and he looked at me and tried to grab me. In that moment I caught an hose and pointed it at him, some fluid came out and into his eyes. But he didn’t care and tried to grab hold on me. I felt scared and panicked. As he knocked me down and tried to strangle me I was screaming in my dream. Until to the last moment when my husband suddenly appeared and knocked him over. I don’t remember anything from here on. I have no idea what happened, if I woke up or something else… But this was a terrifying experience…

Energy is back!

After a strong emotional pain hit me out of nowhere I suddenly also experienced again the strong energy surges! I feel a lot of activity and movement inside my chest, especially in the evening while sitting relaxed and watching a movie! I can feel it through the front but also on the backside of my body. All in the height of the Heart center! On the back it sometimes feels as if density is pressing against the chair lean!

I also try to still my mind through meditation and I somehow managed last night to get some glimpses of what I experienced in the past when all of these energetic experiences started happening. I was lying on my back and just starring into nothingness. My visual screen was dark. However after some minutes of resting and relaxing I started seeing tiny little light flashes in the darkness. Like a distant camera was flashing on and off.

Then out of a sudden as I did not question anything that would happen or actually happened I saw a light flash which brought a visual with it. I saw for the blink of a second a man’s head. He had short blonde hair, blue eyes and his head appeared to be covered in blood! This visual came on suddenly as it always did in the past, when I first had my Kundalini Awakening. It startled me a tiny bit, or enough to create a heart jump, when it appeared. Sometime after this I fell asleep and I actually had a dream that somehow was connected to this visual!

DREAM: Swimming, two men, blood!

In the dream I was myself and I went to some kind of an indoor swimming pool. It looked beautiful and kind of like the pools in Germany! As I walked towards the edge and downstairs into the water a man passed me. He was taller than me, had short blonde hair and blue eyes. His face is burned into my mind I can still see him in front of me! He looked at me while passing with a very charming gaze! Like he was literally starring right into my soul. As I passed him and went deeper into the water I encountered another man who looked very similar to the first one! However I figured out at some point that they were both brothers! The second one was a little bit younger than the first. And it then happened that I felt embarrassed because of the looks these both men were giving me. I tried to hide from them. But in the end I was sitting at the back side of the pool having my feet inside the water, as the younger brother suddenly appeared and sat beside me. He talked to me, sadly the conversation is lost. However I remotely remember that he tried to make me feel happiness. He tried to convince me that his brother would like to see me. So somehow I must have agreed to this whole thing as both of them were irresistibly charming and beautiful at the same time!

The dream shifted and I entered a house, a beautiful home decorated with picture frames and flowers (red roses). As I entered the house I was lead to the entrance area and needed to wait for the older brother to arrive.

The dream shifted yet again and I see myself sitting on the floor having the same blood covering my face as I saw in the tiny 1 second vision before. Just that it was not me, but a man with short blonde hair, blue eyes! Which could have been one of the men of my dream! However why was I the one with the bloody face and why was I actually looking at myself??? How can I look at myself when I am the one who is obviously bleeding? It was like I saw myself from a different viewpoint.