I have some news about last night. I don’t know if anyone of you experienced this. But I tried again for OBE and told myself the whole night being aware “I’ll separate from my body tonight.” I said it over and over again, some kind of self assuring and with some kind of excitement, in order to make my sub-consciousness help me through it. At some point I started seeing these dream scenes again, while I was totally aware of it. Hypnogogic state of trance I guess.
At some point during this I must have nearly fallen asleep, as I suddenly felt a very strange heavy pressure in the center of my chest. It was suffocating once again… The moment I felt this sensation I came back to full awareness, but because I could not cope with the suffocating feeling of not being able to breath, I just turned around on the right side to get out of it. It is a feeling that I can only describe as something crunching your heart and your lungs are not being able to get air in. At least that was what it felt like. I did not really felt the moment it started, because I must have actually already being asleep, but it was strong enough that it woke up my awareness again.
In that moment I suddenly felt my body slightly vibrating. I knew what was happening, but again I could not do anything with it. As I moved before and kicked myself out of it… The vibration went away from alone and I somehow fell back to sleep. 😦 damn it… What are these suffocating feelings that kick me right out of whatever I was in? Anybody? This is already the second time that I have this feeling while trying for OBE in a state of sleep but yet able to get out of it when I feel the chest thing going on.
The first time it happened, it was actually much worse. I was sleeping and suddenly I had the urge to rise my upper body and gasp for air, it was such a suffocating feeling, very difficult to put in words, really… I opened my eyes that night and did only realize a few seconds later that my whole room was suddenly glowing with a red light. I never, ever have seen anything quite like it. The red light in that night faded away very slowly until the room was dark again.
This night I just left my eyes closed and turned around, I don’t even know how I did this. The moment I felt the suffocating feeling it was like I automatically turned to the right side and that brought back my awareness… But yet I wasn’t able to project out of this, because of the fast heart beat after this experience… 😦 Harder than I thought…